A-alpha? --BAKUKAMIII

Scare

I've been feeling off lately, feeling nauseous in the mornings and a little through the day. I've also been very emotional about literally everything, I don't get it.

Right now, I'm crying again. Because it's so fucking sad how Babs from Chicken run doesn't understand that her friends are literally gonna die, she just thinks they're going on vacation.

Until Kats walks in, "Firefly, what's wrong?" He immediately goes to me, I'm just laying in bed right now because I feel like shit.

"S-she doesn't understand!" I pointed to my TV, where the movie was playing.

He just looked at the TV confused, "What the hell are you watchin'?" I started crying more, who the fuck hasn't seen chicken run?

He sighed and comforted me until I calmed down. "It's just a movie. It's ok, the chickens are fine." I could tell he thought it was stupid, but I still appreciated him.

We sat in silence for a bit before I spoke, "I've been thinking." He chuckled, "dangerous," I groaned but smiled. "I'm serious, babe. It's about how I've been."

He was confused for a minute, "What about it? You're probably just sick." I sighed, "Baby, we haven't been using condoms. There's a possibility.... i-i could be pregnant." I got up, panicking at my own train of thought. His eyes widened at the realization.

I started throwing on some clothes and some random shoes, "Where do you think you're going?" I grabbed my wallet as I replied to him, "pharmacy, I just.... I wanna make sure now. Cmon, I can't drive. Let's go."

He grabbed the back of my shirt as I tried walking out, "Denki. We don't even know if you are fertile. Have you ever been tested for it?"

I chewed at the inside of my cheek, nodding. Shinso made me go to the doctor to see if I was able to have kids because he wanted me to have his pups. He only wanted them so he could keep me trapped longer.

"Yeah, a long time ago, but yeah.." Kats nodded and grabbed his keys.

He drove me to the pharmacy. As we arrived, I immediately jumped out of the car and went in, I'm so fucking nervous right now, what if it's positive? Will he leave me? We aren't ready to be parents.. But what if it's negative and he doesn't want me because I'm not pregnant with his pups?

My thoughts ran wild as I went to the tests, grabbing a random one and going to the counter, where a very nice, and might I say, fabulous looking woman helped me, she explained how to do it properly cuz she said the instructions were bullshit.

After paying, I went to the car where Kats was waiting, I got in the passenger seat and buckled up before he started driving back to the dorms.

I was shaking the whole time we drove, so anxious I was nauseous, more so than before. Thank God I didn't vomit, though.

Once we finally got back, and I mean finally as in it felt like years in that car to me, but Kats held my hand, telling me I was going to be ok. That we were going to be ok..

But we finally got back, we went to my room, I was walking faster than normal out of anxiety. "Baby doll." I hear Kats say as he grabs my arm, gently stopping me from speeding down the hall.

"What?" My voice cracked, I was so scared. Scared of it to be positive, if he leaves me with a baby, I'm so fucked. Scared of it to be negative, if I'm not pregnant, what if he leaves me because of disappointment?

"Sparky. I know what's going on in your stupid little mind." He smiles a little, making me smile a bit too, "I'm not going anywhere, ok? If there's a gremlin in you, I will help raise that little thing, and we will be awesome parents. And, if not, I will still love you. We aren't ready anyway, so it'll be fine. I love you, idiot."

He kissed my head when he was done, making me smile a bit. "I love you too.."

We made it to my room, and I went to the bathroom, taking the test and pacing around the bathroom afterward. I had to wait about 15 minutes, I heard Kats after about 5, "Hey, you ok in there, baby?"

"U-uhm yeah, just waiting," my voice cracked, showing my nervousness and anxiety.

"Let me in, baby we'll look together." He said softly.

I opened the door, my face red and puffed, he hugged me, his scent immediately calming me down.

Sooner than I'd like, it was time to look, to say I was terrified beyond belief was honestly an understatement.

We sat on the bathroom floor together, him holding the test face down.

Kats looked at me and held my hand with his free one, "ready?"

I shook my head, "no.."

He kissed my hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze, "I know, but we have to make sure."

I nodded and took a shaky breath as he turned the test over and...

(Jk no cliffhanger)

It's negative.. I let out a sigh of relief as I teared up and hugged Kat. But, part of me was slightly disappointed.

He hugged me back and rubbed my back, "see, baby? It's ok.. it's all gonna be ok.."

I nodded, holding onto him tightly, so yeah.. I might just be sick, I'm mostly glad I'm not pregnant..

We aren't ready for that..