My Life

I want to kill you, boy.

WHAT THE ACTUAL-!
Why am I facing betrayal every Sunday!!

Remember V from my church? Yeah I moved on from him some months ago. BUT, he decided to distance himself from me... Even my mom noticed and was wondering why he wasn't talking to us like he used to.

Like, okay you can distance yourself from me. I totally understand. THAT DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO NOT LET ME KNOW WETHER YOU'RE COMING THIS SUNDAY OR NOT!!

I have been playing the damn piano without practise for five weeks. THE ENTIRE service. I was playing.

You! V! You should've let me know that you aren't coming or not!! YOU MESSAGED EVERYONE PERSONALLY! Everyone knows you aren't coming.
Everyone. Except me.

Why? Why this traitor behaviour?

YOU are the main pianist. The choirmaster. Like, if you trust me that much that I would be able to play piano on the spot because I can find the chords, okay.. fine.

YOU SHOULD'VE AT LEAST TOLD ME WHAT ARE THE SONGS!
Like, how will I play without knowing the songs? THE SONG IS ALWAYS, sent in the group at Saturday night. And you expect me to play on Sunday morning at 9.

If I message you and ask you the songs, you will send it to me on Saturday evening..

I'm a human bro. I can't practice like that in short time. Specially that I'm not really a pianist. I taught myself. Show some mercy!

Like, why did you personally message other pianist what song they will play except me?  Everyone knows the song they will be playing and they get time to practice.
Thank God today A came. I gave All the songs to him. Like, A also ditched me. He says he will come but doesn't come. Today he came. Him getting worked up for one Sunday is fine. It will help him to practice too.

And then there is another A. She also said last Sunday she won't come. But in the middle of the service, she came.... Like, bro. You know that if you're late you can't enter choir because it will ruin the seating arrangements.

Like, V, every Sunday, I look like a clown to everyone. Are you really that happy to see me like this? LIKE ITS A BASIC COMMON SENSE TO TREAT ME PROPERLY!

I need a break. I'm also a board student. Don't forget that.
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