Fallen star- An OSMP and DSMP fanfic

-Tears-

SOOOO im tryna finish this book

there might be- what- 3-4 more chapters and then an epoligue?

so yeh it's drawing to a close

BUT NO FEAR

AFTER THIS

I MAKE MORE CATWIVES

DIFF AU

SLAY LETS GET INTO THE ANGST

TW: angst, swearing, vomit mentioned (??), possible innacurate interpretation of ptsd 

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Shelby thought she might drown one day.

Not in water.

Not in lava.

But in the unbearable hum of her own mind.

At this point, she'd rather get run through by that same diamond sword a thousand times than do her laundry. She felt so fucking useless.

Why was she nervous at clicking the start button? She'd put in all the chemicals and potions, and now this was what stopped her.

A button.

Just 3 minutes earlier, she'd turned it on, then quickly back off. The noise reminded her too much of the explosions.

Too much of that place...

She huffed and kicked her wall, which only ended badly.

When she stood up, she put her hand up over her eyes, shielding herself from the vicious glare of the setting sun. Of course, night was usually a time to sleep, but she didn't really want to. And as a phantom, it didn't affect her too much.

Suddenly, she heard footsteps and spun around so fast she thought she might vomit. A purple starborne was rushing  towards her. 'SHELBY!'

'What?' She said groggily, trying not to show it. 

'Did you see anyone take the TNT? From the potion hut? Me, Phil and Sparkles have had to confiscate it about 5 times now...' He shook his head. 'Mad. So, have you seen it?'

'Nope.' She said, sitting down. 

'Alright. I bet Tubbo took it, he loves ruining things.'

'Will you please stop blaming Tubbo?! It was ages ago, and not his fault!'

'Shelby, you and I both know that you're a bit of a people pleaser and it was definitely his fault-'

Shelby rolled her eyes. 'Where's Nikki?'

'Here.' Nikki said.

'Jesus how do you just randomly appear?!' Scott said.

'Magic.' She giggled.

'I'm gonna go meet up with Sparklez, find that TNT.' Scott grumbled. 'Bye, fruity kids.'

Shelby laughed and rested her head on Nikki's lap. 'What do you think they're planning to do with the TNT?

'Look there's Tommy and Tubbo there, and the TNT. Wait-'

BOOM!

An earthshattering explosion rattled the mountains beside them as an avalanche of rocks and snow rained down.

Boom. Boom bad. Shit.

Several things happened at once. Ranboo grabbed the two children and teleported away from the oncoming snow blast, Shelby's breathing quickened as she ran inside, Scott appeared, swearing furiously, and Jschlatt and Technoblade began trying to excavate the snow.

'Shelby! Shelby please!' Nikki ran inside after her girlfriend, finding her in the bathroom. She was sitting under the sink, a puddle of vomit in the bathtub. She quickly sat down next to her.

Shit. She remembered Scott telling her about how his grandpa used to have ptsd sometimes because of wars over the starborne throne.

'Shelby, can you hear me?' 

Shelby nodded slightly, mumbling incoherently.

'Can I touch your arm?'

'no. no, no, no, no.' The ghost muttered.

'Do you want me to stay?'

No answer.

She considered texting Scott or Ranboo, who had a sister called Aimsey who used to get mild ptsd (A/N: aimsey book canon i'll write aimsey in as a minor character later).

Suddenly, Shelby took Nikki's hand and squeezed it as they rocked back and forth under the sink.

Nikki and Shelby sat there for a couple hours, until Phil found them both curled up, asleep in each other's arms.

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They were in a medical room.

Tommy and Tubbo were being reprimanded by Phil, who was screaming at the two of them a couple hours after the accident.

'-TOTALLY IRESPONSIBLE AND SELFISH! YOU MADE SHELBY HAVE A PTSD ATTACK (is that what they're called)!'

Wait. What??? 

Guilt instantly flooded Tubbo as he looked down at the floor and tears blurred his eyes. Tommy was doing the same, without the tears bit, instead tracing his potion bottle patch on his jeans.

'Phil, for the love of god, these two both know they've done something wrong.' Technoblade looked sternly at the both of them. 'Right??'

They nodded in unison. 

'But we're all tired, and this won't help. They're injured, and sleepy, and hell, they've been to hell and back-'

'Isn't that a line in 'The code?'' Tommy asked.

'What?' Technoblade spun around. 

'Nothing.' The blonde muttered. 'Continue.'

Techno cleared his throat. 'C'mon Phil, they've been traumatised by adults telling them what to do in this life and the last, the least you can do is stop shouting at them. At this point, they're gonna get PTSD flashbacks.'

Phil nodded. 'Sorry.' He muttered. I'm goin' to check on the potions...'

And with that, Phil left.

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Something inside Phil had snapped.

He'd always tried his best to be the dad, the person everyone looked up to, respected, admired.

He hated how there was sometimes things he couldn't change, things he couldn't make better.

He skipped a stone along the riverbank, and reached for another one when he heard a sickening scream.

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hehe haha