dont jump

chapter 1

                                                                                Toms POV:

i was laying on my bed with y/n cuddled next to me, we were both asleep. her alarm went on (for school)  She slowly woke up, rubbing her eyes. she yawned..."how adorable."  i thought. she looks at me with her tired eyes. "good morning sleepy head~" i spoke. 

she just stares at me before replying with a tired "morning" 

she gets up out of bed, and walks to the bathroom to get ready for the day. 

i open my closet and grabbed a cig and a lighter. i light up my cig and sat down by my window and looked up at the sky as he thinks. "i wonder how she'll be at school today..." i sigh as i took a long drag from my cig.

i continued watching out over the city from his room window, i took another long puff and my mind was racing..."how could i protect you...?" i couldnt always be around...he didnt know who exactly was bullying you because if he did he could confront them.

i look down at you as you walk out the bathroom and i raised an eye brow looking at you, my eyes had a proective look to them and i took another puff of my cig and spoke "where are you going? school dont start for another 40 minutes." 

"oh..right..i forgot" she spoke.  looking at you, i had a confused gaze, i was wondering why you'd need to go out so early...i took another puff of my cig before speaking. "well, now that you are up, you can always come and sit by me, baby."

i watch as you walk into my room. i gestured you towards the space beside me with one of my free hand while my other held my cig. "come, sit.."

 i watch as you sit down slowly. i roll my eyes and looked back at the city as i mumbled: "why are you being so cautious? its not like im gonna pull something bad..." i muttered. 

"sorry" you spoke. 

i look at you and took another puff. "its fine baby. just...relax..i dont bite." i muttered as i put my cig to my lips and took a long puff.  i noticed you were biting your nails. "why are you biting you nails? are you nervous, baby...? "

you shook your head. "im fine.." you spoke. 

i kiss your forehead "okay baby"

i notice you looking at my mini fridge. "do you want water, my love?" i ask you

you nod. i nod back as i open the mini fridge to get you water. "here you go, baby" i hand you the water.

"why do you have all that liquor?" you suddenly ask me.

i sigh, annoyed. "because whny the hell not? its good, i love the taste and i just love liquor in general. why do you ask?" i mumble as i took another puff from my cig. i was not embarrassed nor ashamed of my love for alcohol in the slightest.

"and why do you have drugs?" you asked

i shrugged my shoulders very slightly, with a small smirk on my face as i looked at the joint laying on the floor by the alcohol, then back at you and simply said: "why would i not have drugs? its good for high and i dont have to worry about any goddamn problems of family or life in general, i get to have a damn day of happiness." i smirked as i took another puff of my cig

"thats not healthy" i hear you say.

i rolled my eyes slightly and put the cig to my lips as i say: "yeah and so's being bullied and having family issues,  yet here we are..." i said as i had a very sarcastic and slightly bitter tone..i continued to speak "i get it, both are not good.. but  i dont see you stop biting your goddamn nails, do i?"

"....sorry..." i hear you whisper as you looked down at the ground.

i gently reached forward and took you by your chin, tilting your head up so you were looking into my eyes as i gently said: "stop apologizing so much..you have nothing to apologize about." i gently said before gently pulling you closer to me, wrapping an arm around you putting you against my chest...

i hear you sigh softly.

i put your head against my chest and pulled you close against myself while wrapping my other arm around you into a hug and said: "your alright, baby.."  i said gently while holding you in  my arms, i gently started  rubbing a comforting circle on your back as i held you as close as i could.

"sorry..i just dont want you to...end up in the hospital.." i hear you mumble. 

i listened and heard what you said. i nodded my head gently and mumbled: "you dont have to be worry about me, okay?" i mumbled gently and squeezed you gently in the hug and rubbed soothing circles on your back.

i suddenly feel you get off my lap. "what happened, meine leibe?"

"i dont...wanna be late for the bus you know? ill..see you after school."

"okay...i love you, baby...be safe meine leibe..."

"i love you too.." i hear you say before picking your bag up and leaving the room.

END OF CHAPTER 1 hoped you like it so far