Last night was good. Smoking weed with Nathan is fun. I plan on doing it more with him. He was right, it does make you feel like you're floating on a cloud.
Nathan opened up to me last night. I don't know if it was because he was high or he trusted me, but he told me about his past. I feel so sad for him. I wish I could take his pain from him.
I also opened up to him last night. I told him about my parents and my ex. He's a great listener, and I like that about him. He made me feel like I didn't have to hide things anymore.
Maybe I'm just being ridiculous. I only just met Nate. It'd be crazy to be this close to him already. Then again, this is the closest I've been to someone in a while. Everything about him is perfect to me. I wouldn't change anything about him.
Am I falling in love? I thought I knew what love is, but this feels new. It feels like my stomach gets up and dances whenever he walks into the room. I feel like I could talk to him for hours and hours. Maybe I should ask him out.
There's a knock on my door, and a soft voice can be heard from behind it.
"Nora? Can I come in?" His voice is muffled, but I can tell there's something on his mind.
"Yeah, come on in, Nate." I sit up on my bed as he swings the door open.
"Hey." He smiles, but his mind seems to be elsewhere.
"Hey, you." I smile back at him. "What's up?"
He walks in and sits down on my bed. "Thank you. Thank you for last night." he takes a deep breath. "That was very kind of you to listen to me like that. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have dumped all that on you."
I scoot over next to him and give him a soft slap on the face. "Shut up you. I'm glad you did that. Thank you." I hug him, burying my face in between his shoulder and neck. He smells like lavender.
A moment of silence hangs heavy in the air for a little bit. I let go of Nate and look up at him. He looks down at me, his gaze meeting mine. "Have you also..."
I nod, knowing what he was going to ask. "Do you think it's a good idea to just go for it like that? We've only known each other for a few days, but..."
He puts his hand on my cheek. It feels soft and warm, like a warm blanket. "I say we go for it. If it doesn't work out, at least we had fun."
I nestle my cheek further into his hand, enjoying the feeling. "Okay. Let's shoot our shot." His eyes sparkle at me. A glimmer of hope. "Kiss me, you butthead."
Nathan laughs and then puts his lips on mine. Nothing fancy, just a soft and gentle kiss. We pull our lips apart and smile at each other.
"About time." Nathan's smile is bright. I've never seen him smile like this. "You're pretty."
I roll my eyes. "Shut up. I am not." I look back over at him. He's still smiling. "Okay, okay. I'll believe you." I reach up and kiss him again.
I can feel him smiling through the kiss. "You taste good," Nathan says, smacking his lips. An interesting compliment, but I'll take it.
"Yeah? What do I taste like?" I look up at him, waiting for his answer.
"Hmm." He scratches his chin while he thinks. You taste like... My girlfriend, I think. It's the first thing to taste like that. I like it."
"Oh yeah? Maybe you should taste me more." I smile and kiss him again.
"I want to take you on a date tonight. I want to show you my world." He runs his fingers through my hair. His hands feel so good on my scalp.
"Your world? What does that mean?" I adjust myself on my bed, sitting crisscross style. I take his hand and play with his fingers.
"I want it to be a surprise. I haven't shown many people this. It's mine, but I want to share it with you. It's gotten me through a lot." He puts his hand in mine.
"Sounds like a date," I say with a giggle. It's my first date in a couple of years. "Kiss me you doofus."
His lips hug mine. He rests his hands on my hips. We hold the kiss for what feels like an eternity. He pulls away and stands up from my bed.
"We leave at 9 p.m. Be ready for then, okay?" He smiles again. God, I love his smile. "Okay, Nate. What should I wear?" I ask him. I'm not sure what kind of date it is.
"Something comfy, okay? Nothing you don't want to ruin." He leans down and kisses me on the forehead. "See you later. I have to go to class."
"Bye, Nate. Have fun, be safe." He turns around and leaves my room. As soon as the door closes, I scream into my pillow, kicking my feet in the air.
I think I'm in love.
