motive. [shadilver]

15.

SHADOW

Unfortunately, the food that I had at the event really messed me up. I hadn't been able to eat normally for the past few days, but I guess that is what I get from eating garbage at a food truck. Today has been pretty okay, so I was able to put it behind me. I have just been staying home this week, but work was still being finished. It kind of felt like I was taking days off, but doing everything remotely has been so helpful.

I feel like I am ready for this weekend, though. I have been in need of a breather for so long, and I am starting to think that the universe is punishing me for something. I have been working every single day for the past... oh I don't know. I think it's finally starting to catch up to me. I wonder what my boss is going to think when I ask for just two days off for the first time in years. I don't really care about the pay, I am luckily able to live comfortably with what I make now, surely losing a little bit won't do any crazy harm.

I had been lying on my couch watching TV all day, and my eyes felt strained. It's weird because I stare at a screen all day for my job, but the TV is what is starting to give me a headache? I feel like I should do something else. I really don't want to go out, so I should find some other things to keep me busy. It's probably pathetic that I have the mindset that if I am not doing something then I am wasting my time and life away, but I have done nothing else.

I have never had this issue before, but now that I am alone and bored, it feels a lot more empty than I would like to admit. I don't know what time it is, but it is definitely later, and I had one of the most intense scares of my life when I heard the door swing open and the doorknob hit the wall. There is only one person who can just come into my apartment unannounced like that, and it's Rouge.

I gave her a key to my place just in case... something happened to me. When I initially gave it to her, I wasn't doing well at all. It gave her a small sense of security, and she utilized it very well in the beginning. Now... she just uses it to come whenever and eat my food and steal my clothes. I only tolerate it because she doesn't leave a mess behind, and usually compensates for everything she does. Besides, I think it's a little sweet that she is comfortable enough with me to do that sort of thing.

Of course, I totally forgot to tell her about me being able to work without being at the office, so I heard a muttered 'what the fuck' due to the TV being on. I sunk down on the couch, waiting for her to come around before giving her a taste of her own medicine.

"Boo!"

I had never heard the noise that came out of her before, but it was funny nevertheless. It was almost perfect timing that she came now, while I was home. Sometimes I feel like she can sense things about me. That's obvious, I knew that before, and that's why I gave her my key.

"What are you doing at home? Are you sick?"

"No, no. I can work at home now."

"Since when?"

Her voice was just a little too loud right now, making me squint. I knew she was surprised, but hell. She threw her hands onto her hips, looking at me intently.

"Not long, don't worry."

I replied, slowly sitting up from the couch. She hummed before sighing, and I noticed what she had in her hand.

"Well, it's nice that you are home. You know I don't like to leave things for you to find later."

I guess it does weaken the whole reason for gifting things. Some people like to see other people's reactions, not like I could offer anything. But she did sound genuinely sad about this, I didn't realize it affected her so much. I felt awkward sitting while she stood, and she still had everything on and things in her hands, so I let out a short hum before standing up, reaching out.