Suga POV
I walk out of the infirmary with Kookie following close behind. I fidget with my hands as we get closer to the living room. My heart is pounding. I get to the very edge of the hall and take a deep breath before I step out and look at Y/n. "I-" before I can get anything else out she squeaks and makes a point to not look at me.
"Uhh Yoongi this might not be the best time," Tae tells me softly. "But I‐" I start but Kook interrupts me and puts his hand on my shoulder. "Let's try again later." He leads me back towards my room. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry," I mumble. "I know, bud. She needs time," he explains. "I know, I'm sorry," I mutter. I sit on my bed and Kook follows.
Y/n POV
He comes back through the hallway. I quickly turn away to avoid his gaze. I can't talk to him right now, not after everything. V talks to him as I'm trying to ignore everything entirely. He walks a way, and I let out a breath. "I can't do this, not right now," I mumble. "He didn't mean harm," V tells me. "This time," I sigh, burying my face into a pillow.
He quietly sat down next to me. After the longest minute of my life I word vomit. "I can't take the silence. Please say something!" Tae just looks at me. "I'll talk to you later." I announce standing up and limping to my bedroom. I go and sit on my bed. I can't talk to Suga right now and I can't sit around other's in silence.
After a couple of minutes of twiddling my thumbs and increasing anxiety for seemingly no reason. I stand up and limp to Jimin's room in the infirmary. I knock then go in.
"Y/n! How're you?" He asks. "I'm alright how're you doing?" I return his question. "Getting better," he responds, "How was Yoongi's apology?" I take a deep breath. "I don't know," I respond. "He did-" Jimin says his voice rising. He started to stand. "He probably tried but I didn't let him," I explain while motioning him to lay back down. "Oh Y/n you should let him apologize," Jimin explains. "Nevermind," I mutter as I head out.
"Wait!" Jimin yells after me. "Just hear him out," he continues. I quickly turn around to face him. "I can't. Not right now. I don't want to talk to him. I don't want to see him. I can't deal with him right now." I rant getting teary-eyed. "Y/n I think th-"
"Jimin! I can't be around him right now! He did shit so bad that I wanted to die! I still do if I'm being honest! I literally just jumped out of a window because of him! I don't want anything bad to happen to him but I can't forgive him right now! How do you not fucking understand! I am hurt and confused!" I yell at him.
I storm out. Low and behold I have an audience. "Sorry guys," I say pushing past them and wiping my tears. I go into my room and sit on my bed. I look in my nightstand and pull out a knife. I slowly roll up my shorts. "I shouldn't have yelled at him." 1 cut. "I should for give him." 2 cuts. "I- " the door handle wiggles and I throw the knife under the pillow and pull my shorts back down.
J-hope pokes his head in. "Hey Y/n, wanna talk about what just happened?" He asks. "No" I answer emotionless. "Well unfortunately after what was said I don't trust you in here alone." He says walking closer to me. I skooch up trying to push the knife farther under the pillow. "Sorry J-hope I'm really fine enough. I'm not going to jump out the window again." I assure him. "Just don't ask me to forgive him right now. "I add on.
He nodds. "I'm extremely bored you should tell me about your day," I request. He sits at the foot of my bed and starts talking.
Yoongi POV
She's never gonna forgive me. Why should she? Why won't she let me talk? The guy's are going to kick me out. Jungkook interrupts my thoughts. "Any idea what you're going to say to her?" I sigh, "Not a clue. How could there ever be a good way to apologize for something like this.
Kook looks like he's thinking really hard for a couple of minutes. "I don't think there's a "good" way to apologize for this. I think as long as you're honest and speak from the heart will be the best way. Probably with a chocolate cake too," Kook announces. "I think you're right." I mumble.
My line of thinking has grown louder and more intense. How could I do this. I should give myself a taste of that same medicine. No on- "Hey stay here with me hyung." Kookie says waving his hand in front of my face. "Yeah yeah okay. Tell me a story to keep me distracted." I tell him.
Y/n POV
Hope's been talking for awhile now (luckily), and I've laughed at his amazing jokes. I lean forward and reach to stretch my back after leaning up against the wall. I sit up a bit to quickly and my head his spinning. "Hey you have a little tear in the back of your shirt. Where did that come from?" J-Hope asks. Shit.
His words sound far away. "I'm not sure probably a tree branch or something," I say slowly. My vision is fading to black and I'm pretty scared. "That's strange are you sure?" he asks. "Whoa Y/n you got really pale are you okay?" I can't focus on anyone sound is fucked and vision keeps fading. Then It all fade completely to black and I hit the floor.
A/n: Hey guys long time no see. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. I'm going to try to get more out quicker but we'll see.
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BTS gang ff// Run Away
RandomY/n has finally escaped her abusive parents and is going into hiding when she is found by a gang and she learns more about her family. WARNINGS: If you need a warning then you should probably not be reading a gang ff or at least not mine
