Raynaa...🪷

🦋I Dont Care🦋

Rayna's POV:

When I opened my eyes, to found myself on my bed. Surrounded by Gopi and Radha, what am I doing here? What happened? I tried to get up but a cry of pain left my lips grabbing the senses of the girls. Their eyes widened and they helped me sit on the comfortable bed.

Me: how did I get here?

Gopi: you fainted on the way back to the palace.

Radha: King Namjoon bought you here. Crying his eyes out.

Fainted? Then suddenly the memory came rushing into my head and the last thing I remembered was the sensual kiss initiated by yoongi. Heat traveled through my cheeks as I remembered every detail of it.

Me: where are the kings?

Radha shrugged.

Radha: The royal doctor kicked them out as soon as he got here. We have no idea where they are.

I bite my lip. I wanted to see them, they must be worried sick! With that, I flunked my legs off the bed and stood up ignoring the pain in my lower half.

Gopi: rayna royal doctor has suggested you rest!

Me: I want to see them.

Radha: then call them here!

But I was too occupied with my thoughts of them being worried for me that I dismissed her walking out of my chamber. I felt relieved to find them right outside my room, with a big smile I was about to call out for them But halted as soon as the words of the royal doctor made my body numb.

Royal doctor: in easy terms, she can't get pregnant in this lifetime.

Jungkook: d-doctor what did you mean by can't get pregnant? Can't we cure it?

Royal doctor: no king jungkook I'm sorry.

My whole world collided in front of my eyes, I couldn't be a mother in this lifetime. I will be not able to feel the divine pleasure of being a mom to a little soul. My feet shivered causing me to lose my balance and my shoulder hit the door causing a loud thud with that my presence was exposed to my husbands. Those beautiful eyes there were filled with painful tears, I could see their hope of being a father getting crushed by me. Like me, They can't be a parent either.

My whole existence felt useless, just a burden on them who couldn't even give them heirs. Just a worthless person in their life. I composed my posture and walked back into my chamber, not uttering a single word to them as I was so ashamed to even look at them. I asked Gopi and Radha to give me some privacy. They were heartbroken as well and didn't argue much leaving my chamber instantly.

"Do they hate me now?"

"Will they still love me?"

"Will they send me back to India?"

"Or will dismiss me."

"Will I ever be able to meet them after this?"

"What if they will just disappear from my life?"

My legs hit the wooden corner of my bed and I let my body go on the mattress. My body was too numb to even feel any pain or emotion. I wasn't even crying cause my body was in shock to even comprehend the emotions.

No one will ever call me Maa. I will never be able to carry a little human into my womb. Not able to feel those little arms wrapped around me, those little feet who will follow me around. That sweet giggles. The cries and puppy eyes manipulate me to do things they want me to. The love the affection of a child toward their mom felt like a dream to me now, which I couldn't accomplish in this life. I wrapped my hands around my belly, it felt empty. I could feel my heart twist in my chest causing me to Sevier pain but still, I wasn't crying.