Raunak: The Essence of Life(Completed)

Chapter 33

At evening I was doing my chores as fast as possible. I want to see him. Maybe with his adorned fragrance he will be at ease and his anger would be dissipated. I have heard that he has become grumpy, more angrier and almost everything irritates him now. I know it was all my fault the least I could do to make his feel at ease is to provide all his favourite things to him.

 I am waiting for the right time to tell him and I do not when that will come. Or I think everytime is a right time whenever I decides to talk to him but I am not ready yet. At the speed I am going I do not think I am going to tell him ever. 

I have started to get comfortable with my new role but Manavi asked me when I was going to confess. She asked me to tell him tonight before he get to know about us from somewhere else and he consider us as some spy. It is not like this disguise will be kept hidden for so long.

I heard the sound of horses running towards our cantonment. He has arrived with his soldiers. The night has already fallen. Some maids go out to help them settle in their tents. While I prepared food to serve them. 

"Raunak tonight you have to tell him anyhow. I do not think that this disguise will work for long" She told me stressed. 
"I know, I am just nervous what if he does not listen me" I told her feeling nervous and scared.

"Nothing will happen my child just tell him everything. If he loves you he will understand and if not we will be there with you" She said joking at which I could not laugh due to my anxiousness.

I nodded my head at them at go to Rana sa's tent covering my face with my duppata. He was wearing his clothes after taking bath. I entered with his food and kept it on his stool. He was staring at me the whole time without blinking. I just stood there waiting for him to move or say something.

"Do you want to say something?" He asked. I stayed silent I did not know If it was directed to me. You dumb woman! Of course who else is present here! 

I wanted to say thousand things but did not how to say them. It was right time to tell him he has asked me to speak. The universe has given me directions to do so. I shook my head quietly. I know I have done a huge mistake but his next words proved me right.

"So you don't have anything to say Raunak?" He said quietly almost whispering. I gasped. I looked at him through my veil.

"Did you really think that a veil and these clothes will make me fool. Raunak you will enter in a room and I will know. I knew from the moment you came here. I was giving you and myself a chance to prove me wrong" He said coming closer to me.

I removed my veil and looked up at him. His eyes were filled with pure agony. I could not look at his face.

"Rana sa my love for you was real but I was not real. I did not had the courage" I told him with tears in my eyes.

"Why? Why Raunak?"  He asked while making me face him keeping his index finger under my chin.

"I am sorry I did not intended to hurt you. I tried Rana sa, I really did for so many times but I was get scared that you will leave me once you know about me" I told him feeling my tears on my cheeks.

"You loved me but never enough to trust me?  Or is it just another lie to cover up your another lie?" I shook my head.

"No Rana sa It is true that I love you, I always have" I told him feeling scared the fear of losing him is so strong. He is trying to be strong but I can see him hurting through his eyes. The thought that I have done this to him is making me more sad. We would not have to see this day if I have trusted on him before. He pushed me away from him not hard enough for me to fall but enough to create some distance between us. 

I deserve this for breaking his trust. He never ever put a single finger on me and now I have pushed his so far that he has pushed me away from him. I don't know why but this hurted me more than I could have imagined. I could stop my tears. He looked in other direction facing his back towards me.

"Raunak I did everything for your happiness, every small to big thing, my family loved you, my mother treated you like her own daughter, my brother loved you like his own sister, I loved you like you are my only light in this dark universe, I ever stood against my baba for your happiness. What you did Raunak? You just proved him right that you are not trustable" He said with disgust in his voice.

"Rana sa please hear me out. Just this one last time" I said to him.

"I have loved you Raunak and my love for you was real unlike yours and this is the only reason why you are getting chance. If it would have been someone else I would have hanged him alive" He said with anger laced voice and hurt in his eyes. His eyes were reflecting the pain in his voice.

"I never wanted to be married to you at first place. I never in my wildest dream thought of marrying someone from royal family beacause my mother was a common flower seller. She was no nobility but my father liked her. They had secret affairs and I was born. My father bring me at palace with him. He was already married and had two children. They treated me like servant and never let me out of palace like a prisoner. Soon I got the new of my mother's death and after death I did not ever tried to run away from palace. No one was allowed to speak of me as Baba's daughter. They do not wanted everyone to know that I am illegitimate daughter of their King. But after losing war they swapped me with my sister. I did had any say in that. I thought that everything is going to be worse now but I was wrong. You were so good that day by day it became hard for me to tell you about me. I thought that I will just be left alone but you all loved me like your own family. I tried so many time to tell you everything but I was scared to go back to same unwanted, unloved position. I wanted to be with you forever. Rana sa I did not wanted your hate but look at destiny now it is all you have for me" I told him everything by the end the tears were flowing freely out of my eyes. I could not look at his face now. It was already hard for me to let it all out, now I do not to see the hate on his face.

It was all a bad idea all along. I should have come here he would have won the war and lived his life happily ever after without thinking about me with some other princess. I started walking away from him, outside the tent. He looked at my way but not with hate but not with love also. I run out of the tent before I heard him scream my name behind me. 

I did not stop to hear his next words, I ran as fast as I could but I know I am not some athelete I could not run for long. I have to hide somewhere. I turn toward some unknown town so that they could not guess about my direction.

Once I could not heard any sound of horse neighing only then I took a breadth of relief. I just hope Maasi and Manavi escape from there without any chaos. I look at the beautiful village but I do not want to go there. I am tired and sad. I decided to take a walk into the village to calm myself a bit.

Suddenly a hand grasped my wrist and pulled me backwards. I could not balance myself and collide with a hard and muscular chest and fell on the person. I gasped surprised and embarrassed. The familiar spicy smell of Rana sa hit my nostrils which felt like home. After so long being in his embrace overwhelms me and I started crying hugging him back tightly. I really missed him so much that it felt really impossible to hold him like this ever again.

I do not know if I will ever get to hold him this close ever again so I savoured this feeling for as long as I can. He hugged me back and make me sit on his lap while I cried. He caressed my back gently.

"I am so sorry Rana sa. My intentions was never wrong about you and your family. You can punish me however you want but please end the war" I said to him trying to control my hiccups.

"Raunak calm down. We will talk about it later firstly lets get you to my tent" He said carrying me in his arms. 

Hi guys!! I know a little late but I am posting a long chapter so it is justified. I was quite confused that how my story is going to unveil in upcoming chapters. You can already tell that now our story is nearly at its end. Let's see how upcoming chapter treat Raunak and Rana sa.

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