Niall Horan Sickfics (updates mostly in summer)

Nouis-Panic Attack

This is for @soup_princess13 . I hope this is what you wanted! Lots of love!!
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Niall's POV

Me and the boys are relaxing in the dressing room as the opening act is playing. Today we are playing the biggest show in our careers(just pretend). I am beyond nervous.

Even though we have played hundreds of shows, I still get super nervous! Today, being the biggest show, my level of nervousness is 10 times higher!

As Louis and I are cuddling on a couch while Liam and Harry play video games. My mind starts racing thinking of all the things that could go wrong. What if I fall?! What if I embarrass myself in front of thousands of people? What if I forget lyrics?

My breath starts to quicken, I can feel my heart beating wildly in my chest and a layer of sweat forms on my head. Luckily no one notices.

I used to have a lot of panic attacks as a kid because of my claustrophobia and stress but I never told the boys cause I don't want them to worry about me. I know when I'm about to have a panic attack and this is one of those times. I can't have a panic attack!!! Not now!!

I begin to panic more because I can't have a panic attack now! All these thoughts in my head cause me to start hyperventilating and shaking in Louis' arms.

"Niall?! What's going on, babe?! BOYS, something's wrong with Niall!" Louis says, worry clear in is voice.

My vision starts to blur due to loss of oxygen in my lungs. I feel Louis get off the couch next to be and I see his blurred figure in front of me.

"Niall, what's going on? Say something, please!"Louis pleads.

"Niall, calm down, mate. What's going on?" Liam says. I feel a large hand rubbing my back, and I know that's it's Harry because I feel his rings. At this point I am doubled over trying to catch my breath.

"P-pan-nic-c att-tac-k" I manage to wheeze out.

"Guys, back up. My mum told me how to deal with these." Louis demands.

"Babe, I need you to try and copy my breathing, okay?" Louis grasps my hand and places it in his chest for my to copy.

I squeeze my eyes shut and try to copy him. I remember my brother doing this with me when I was younger.

"Niall, baby, everything is going to be okay. You need to calm down. Everything is okay. You're okay."

Everything is okay. I'm going to be fine. Nothing bad is going to happen. I'm okay. I have the boys. They will help me. I don't have to worry.

After a few minutes the boys soothing me and Louis kissing me on the lips, cheek and head I calm down and my breathing becomes normal.

I finally open my eyes and I see all the boys, especially Louis relax.

"Babe, don't ever scare me like that again!" Louis demands as he jumps up and hugs me.

"I'm sorry. I'm just so nervous for the show and I was worried about having a panic attack in front of you guys or the fans."

"Wait, so you've had a panic attack that severe before?" Harry exclaims.

"Yeah, I used to have them all the time as a kid but as I got older I stopped having them." I explained sleepily.

"Maybe you shouldn't do the show mate. You look exhausted!" Liam tries to persuade.

"No, I can't let down all those fans. I can do it. I'll just tell them I don't feel well."

"Alright, if you're sure. It's time to go on. Let's go lads." Harry informs.

Louis kisses me again and helps me up and keeps his hand firmly on my waist so I won't fall.

We get all our equipment for the show on and do our huddle. The boys helped me throughout the show and explained that I wasn't feeling my best. I sat for most of the show because I was very weak.

After the show we all went to Louis and my room and we watched movies. Well, the boys watched movies, I slept. We all cuddled on the bed and they all helped me with whatever I needed since I was still so tired and weak.

The next day I was still tired but feeling much better. I'm so thankful to have these boys in my life. I love them all, especially my Louis. I got double cuddles and kisses from him;).