Jahnnie story :)

why does he care about me so much? - chapter 2

TW: Gay jokes

Johnnies pov:

I woke up,I was in Jakes bed,but Jake was no where to be seen,i got up and walked out of Jakes room,Jake shouted "yo,yo,yoo!" he must of heard me open the door,or my footsteps "hey" I responded "hii,ya hungry?" he shouts up the stairs "no I'm good!" the truth is,i was hungry,very hungry,i had only started to stop eating 2 days ago. I don't even think I'm fat. I just want to- "you sure?? I'm making pancakes!" "no thanks,there too sweet!" "do you want something else?" "no,I'm seriously not hungry!" "'kay!!"

Jakes pov:

"'kay!" Johnnie hadn't eaten for 2 days,everytime i asked him to eat something he always declined the offer,honestly,i know hes a grown man but..I'm worried about him. Last time he did this ,it was like..four or two years ago? He said it on one of his videos. He starves himself to self-harm. I wish i could help him,i really do,but he has been through a lot,at least hes still here tho,if he wasn't I'd be really sad..i probably would've never met him.. I make him 2 pieces of toasts anyways,I put jam and butter on one and the other has just butter. I also finish making my white chocolate pancakes and bring the toast up to Johnnie,knocking on his door.

Johnnies pov:

Jake knocks on my door. "Johnnie? can i come in?" "wait!" I shout. He can't come in. Not now. Please go away. "fuck.." I whisper. If I'm gonna be honest,I was reading comments on my tweets,youtube videos,instagram posts and reddits about me. Now I'm crying. Why'd Jake have to knock on right now. God,I'm such a cry baby. I hate myself for being like this. I wish i wasn't so sensi- "Johnniee! hurry uppp!" "right.." I wiped my tears "come in!" Jake walks in "..Johnnie? Have you been crying?" "I- I w-"

Jakes pov:

"..Johnnie? Have you been crying?" "I- I w-" he stuttered. I hug him. I can tell he wants to cry again but he doesn't,he just rests his head on my shoulder shakily breathing. I feel a wet drop fall on me. Then another. Then another. Johnnie starts to cry. I rub his back. "its okay..its okay..let it out.." he continues crying whilst i start humming "things to do" by Alex g. He puts his arms around me,basically grabbing onto me,sort of shaking. After a while he calms down. We're now led down. I sit back up and grab Johnnies toast and my pancakes. I give him the toast. "I said i wasn't hungry.." "I just made it just incase you..became hungry.." I speak in a soft tone "thank you for caring about me Jake.."

Johnnies pov:

"thank you for caring about me Jake.." fuck.why'd he have to bring me some toast? its kind but..I'm trying to starve myself. i cant decline it now tho because he's got it for me and it would be rude. Goddamit Jake. why'd you have to care so much about me?! why cant you just not care?! Why cant i be the only one who cares for me?! why'd you have to be so nice to me?! why do you even care about some stupid emo that got lucky?! why- "Johnnie..are you okay?" "yeah!..yeah!..never been better!.." "well thats a lie,you just cried in my arms." fuck,hes not lying. I eat the toast,so then Jake doesn't suspect anything wrong with me. After i finish the toast,i get up and go to my bathroom,i feel sick. I start to vomit, Jake immediately gets up,walks to the bathroom,and pulls some of my hair back,he rubs my back saying softly "its okay..its okay.." I'm kind of glad I threw up. But it burns my throat. When i finish,i have an irritating throat. I'm violently shaking and crying. I'm always like this when i throw up. I don't know why. I get up and flush the toilet. Jake has disappeared,a few minutes later he comes up with a water bottle and gives it to me,i drink the water,it makes me feel better. I wipe my mouth with toilet roll and go back into my room with Jake. Jake had already finished eating and he brought both of our plates down when getting me water. I led down in bed and Jake led next to me..and he held me. I knew this was weird and gay. Me and Jake weren't usually like this..so i said "you trying to bone me or make me cum-?" I smile "of course I am little slut" Jake says smiling as i laugh "well you already did that by your voice-" Jake does that stupid seductive look or whatever "you need me to jerk you offff?" he also says that in a seductive tone "woah ,weird dude. weird. why are you being weird?" Jake laughs at me and i laugh along,after the laughing stops Jake moves his hand down my waist "I'm not being weirddd.." i get a nervous feeling and move his hand,i end up doing a nervous chuckle and Jake laughs again "I'm kiddinggg" Jake lets go of me and turns over to lay next to me,he's led on his back and i also lay on my back and we start rambling about random things.