burn

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by LiveLifeLost

by LiveLifeLost

It burns, stings
But it's worth it cuz it's working
My emotions just fade away
I'm distracted from everything for a moment.

The physical pain is overwhelming my emotions, and it's nice to just be calm again

But, no, stop
Now it's overwhelming ME
Help, stop, no!
I don't want this
This is not what I meant!

I thought: Well.. One time, I will be able to control it, I'm strong enough
But no, I wasn't.
It took control over my life, my thoughts
I can't seem to do anything else without thinking about it..

Every little thing is so triggering and I just can't seem to run from it. It's everywhere, in my mind, in real life. Really everywhere

I draw. But no...
My pencil is a knife and the paper is my wrist