ENHYPEN

𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐚 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 | HEESEUNG

ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ 

The room was dark, lit only by the glow of my laptop screen. I watched the latest ENHYPEN performance for what felt like the hundredth time; my eyes fixated on Heeseung. His voice, his stage presence, everything about him was magnetic. He was perfect, and it felt like he was singing just for me for a moment.

The posters on my wall, the albums neatly stacked on my desk, the countless hours spent watching videos and reading interviews - it was all for him. My heart ached with a longing that I knew was irrational, but it was a longing I couldn't shake.

(Flashback)

"One day, Heeseung will notice me," I told myself, lying on my bed, clutching a photo of him. "One day, he'll see me and realize that I've been here, supporting him, loving him from afar."

It was a dream, a delusion, but it was my solace. I imagined meeting him at a fan sign, our eyes locked, and him feeling the same spark that I did. I imagines him seeking me out, wanting to know me, to love me as much as I loved him.

But reality can crash in, shattering even the most beautiful illusions.

(Present)

The notification popped up on my phone: "Heeseung's Special Announcement." My heart raced as I clicked the link, eager to hear what he had to say. The video started, and he was smiling, that smile that had stolen my heart so many times before.

"Hi, ENGENES," he began, his voice warm and gentle. "I have something important to share with you all."

My breath hitched. This was it. The moment I had been waiting for. But as he continued to speak, my world started to crumble.

"I've been keeping something private for a long time, but it's the right time to share it. I'm in a relationship."

His words echoes in my mind, each syllable a dagger to my heart. I watched in stunned silence as he introduced his girlfriend, a beautiful woman who radiated warmth and kindness.

"I hope you can support us," he finished, his eyes pleading through the screen.

I closed the video, my chest tight with a mix of emotions. Sadness, jealousy, but most of all, a deep, crushing sense of loss. It was over. The dream I had clung to for so long was shattered.

(Later That Night)

I lay in bed, stating at the ceiling. Tears blurred my vision as I tried to reconcile my feelings. I was happy for him, indeed. He deserved love and happiness. But my selfish part couldn't help but mourn what never was, what never could be.

"Heeseung was never mine," I told myself, trying to find some comfort. "He was always just a beautiful dream that I have to let go of."

But letting go was easier said than done. The memories of every concert, every interaction, every moment spent loving him from afar played in my mind on an endless loop.

(Weeks Later)

I found myself in my room,, the posters and albums still in their places. But something had changed. I had changed. The pain was still there, but it was duller now, less sharp. I knew I had to move forward to find happiness outside the fantasy I had built.

(Six Months Later)

Life had a funny way of moving on. I still loved Heeseung, but it was different now. I still loved Heeseung, but it was different now. It was the kind of love that wished him well from afar, that hoped for his happiness even if it wasn't with me. And that was okay.

I attended their concert, the first one since his announcement. As I watched him perform, I felt a sense of peace. He was happy, and that was enough for me. I still dreamed and hoped, but my dreams were my own. They weren't tied to someone who could never indeed be mine.

(After The Concert)

I sat in the park, and the cool night air was a balm to my soul. I looked up at the stars, feeling a sense of closure.

"I'll always love you, Heeseung," I thought, smiling through the tears. "But now, it's time to love myself too."

As the night grew darker, I made a promise to myself. I would keep dreaming and keep hoping, but I would also live. I would find my happiness, and maybe, one day, I would find real and true love.

Until then, I would have always cherished the beautiful dream of Heeseung, a star that would forever shine brightly in my heart.

ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈ ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ᴖ̈

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