as long as your next to me - malachi barton

post breakup

it's been a few weeks since the breakup and i'm back at home now and have been since it happened. i've been trying not to think about how it's gonna be when break ends and i have to see everyone again, i have enough to worry about as it is. i've been ignoring my friends and have blocked a lot of them which is really bad but i cannot be bothered with that rn, i still feel iffy about them not telling me, even if they thought it wasn't true i still should've known.

i've been working on a few songs recently that i'm gonna release pretty soon, it seems like the only thing that's been distracting me, even though the distractions never seem to last long.

people always say that time makes things easier, but it doesn't, and nothing about anything is easier.

malachi was the only thing that made things feel fine. i used to think that everything was okay as long as he was next to me, but he's not anymore. and nothing is okay.

"hey cass, made u breakfast." dylan said as he walked into my room, taking a seat on the edge of my bed as he placed a plate of food down next to me.

"thanks." i responded as i stretched and rubbed my eyes.

"why don't u invite ari over today?? maybe mason?" dylan suggested.

"i think ari's with madi and masons with miguel and these other girls." i responded.

"okay. well i'll leave u alone, make sure to eat that i worked really hard on it!" dylan said enthusiastically as he got up and walked towards the door.

"mom made it you suck at cooking dumbass!" i laughed.

"okay okay well i washed the fruit and put it on the plate and shit, just shut up" he said as he threw his hands up and left the room.

the rest of the day was just me laying in bed for hours, not getting up unless i had to use the bathroom. i had a few bites of dylan's food that i slowly picked at as the hours went by. it's been the same cycle for weeks. sleep, rot in bed, talk to my family, eat, sleep.

it was now 7:46 pm. the lights were off and the blinds were closed, the only source of light coming from the movie Tangled i was watching on my tv.

"HEY CASSIE WERE GOING ON A DRIVE!! AND UR COMING!!" dylan screamed as he barged into my room, a familiar face running inside and dunking on the mini basketball hoop i had hung on my wall.

"HEY I LOVE TANGLED!" my brothers friend screamed as he jumped onto my bed and began watching.

"brady?!" i said.

"my beautiful boyfriend brady noon!" dylan said, jokingly motioning his hands so show brady off.

"that's me! been awhile, how'v ya been?" brady asked, not moving his eyes away from the movie.

"been good..." i said as i giggled, it's been awhile since brady's been over.

"okok i'm feeling suffocated in ur dark ass room, can we go before the sun sets??" dylan complained.

"woah who said i was going" i replied.

"me" dylan said as he dragged me up.

after a bit of arguing cuz that's what siblings do, we got into the car and began driving to the beach while we blasted music. this was the first time i'd been outside in so long.

"dylan i hate you. you rushed me out the door and i didn't even have time to grab a hoodie." i complained.

"well MAYBE if you weren't so busy yelling at me you would've remembered to grab one!" he snapped back.