meaning of love

8. Yes or No!

""Lilly...how does it feel?" yelled my sister Sam from the back, who was behind me by four horses.

"This is so cool! I love it, but I'm also scared I might fall down," I replied in an excited and shaky voice as a guy was leading all the horses tied together with a rope into the mountainous areas.

Suddenly, fear gripped my heart as I started feeling strange. My body began sweating due to the fear and tension. I could feel hands on me, as if someone was doing something...something wrong...touching me without my consent. I fell off my horse on the mountain range as all my family members started shouting my name. My dad got off his horse and started running toward me.

""Dad...don't," I said as I kept falling down and down....

Taking a deep breath, I woke up and looked around to find myself still in our store surrounded by the sleeping forms of Mikael, Sam, and Grandpa. I put a hand to my forehead, only to find it covered in sweat. What's going on...why did I dream about this? I almost forgot about that incident, but my subconscious won't let me forget. Hey, don't blame me as if I'm someone else, my subconscious piped in. Just great.

What's the time anyway? I double-clicked the tab to see it's still 5 a.m., pretty early to wake up, but after that episode, I don't think I can sleep for a week.

I unlocked the tab and started playing the 'Cut the Rope' game, which is just amazing and has the power to take my mind off things.

*****
I started walking to my class with a skip in my step. I'm even early to school today, adding to my happy mood.

"Hey, Nat, you're already here?" While scanning the classroom to find some boys already here, Nat's the first girl, and I'm second. A cool achievement, I'd say.

"What are you doing?" I asked Nat.

"Completing English homework. I'm trying to find some easy-to-remember but new-to-us words," she replied.

""Hey, is it your turn already?" I asked.

"Yeah," she replied while busily searching through her dictionary.

The class started filling in and I'm starting to get bored. Why did I come so early again?

"Here, let me help you," I said and took the dictionary from her hands.

"Write this word and this one," I said, pointing to them while she wrote them down in her notebook.

"Quick, go and write them on the board before the teacher comes in," I said, and she dashed off.

It will be my turn in four days. I should pick words early; otherwise, I might end up choosing tough words in a hurry.

Madeline entered the class and sat behind me. I waved my hand as a greeting.

"She's late. Sir is right behind me. He'll be here any second," she said.

"It's fine. She's almost done," I replied.

"Good morning, class," Sir greeted while entering the class. We all stood up to greet him back, saying, "Good morning, sir," and sat down as usual.

Seeing Sir, I unconsciously started smiling, remembering our previous conversation and how it would affect my schooling. I will definitely be excluded from homework submissions. After all, I'm Sir's girlfriend now.

Nat Came back to her seat while sheepishly smiling at Sir.

"Write them down," Sir ordered and came to sit in front of my bench. He started smiling at me, and I smiled back.

"Yes or no, Lilly?" he shot, continuing to smile.

"About what, sir?" I asked, knitting my eyebrows together in confusion.

you know what, He replied.

Ahh! I guess, its regarding yesterday's matter again, wow!, sir is so considerate he is giving me more and mole time to think and consider before giving an  him an answer.

but of course my answer hasn't changed. I smiled and replied "Yes sir".

"Are you sure?" he asked again.

Am I missing something? Why is sir asking again and again? Didn't I say 'yes' yesterday and also today?

I was silent, unsure of how to reply.

Sir went back to the blackboard and started randomly calling students to question them regarding the previous words.

What's up with the yes or no? Should I not say yes? Is it something else? My brain is frying. Lets leave it for now.

*****
"Yes or no?"

What! Who is saying it?

"Yes or no?"

Matthew? What is his deal now?
Why is he saying it?
I hate him, with that I rolled my eyes and continued to work on my homework.

***** 
This continued for a few days, where both of them continued asking me Yes or no,Irealised, there was no point in answering or not, and ignored there but then it happend, something I cannot ignore

"will you give me a kiss?" asked joey sir.

that shook my brain, that one question made me see all our previous interactions in a whole new light.
what did I get myself into.

"tomorrow, I need an answer for that" saying that he went back to teaching the class.

I realised how dumb I was, how brainess my thoughts were and the gravity of the situation.

how do I say no to the sir ? Knowing his temper and the beatings, I won't survive this. How can I face him? How can I go back to school?
"Mom, I want to change schools. I don't like St. Ann's High School."

"And?" she asked.

"What do you mean 'and'? There's nothing more."

"Ma, I'm serious. Look at me," I said.

"Have you gone crazy?" she asked, finally looking at me.

"Ma, you don't understand," I said.

"Then make me understand, dear," she said.

Exhaling, I started to explain, but nothing came out of my mouth.

"What should I say? Mom, let me write it down on a piece of paper and give it to you?" I finally said, and she nodded her head.

Unable to say it out loud, I grabbed a piece of paper and started writing, 'A person in my school asked me to be his girlfriend...' In the end, 'That person is none other than my class teacher, Joey Sir.'