meaning of love

3.Confession

"What are you talking about? did you forget that I lent you my bag for a day because you begged me to?" I said to Mikeal eying him to agree with me, not understanding, Mikeal just nodded his brain I mean head.

Metthew just smiled not saying anything. I really don't want this conversation to last any longer so I pulled my novel from my bag and started flipping through the pages to find my bookmark.

Seeing this Matthew asked "are you into reading?" I just noddded my head not wanting to speak, he really didn't get the hint and started asking more questions.

"oh, what book is that? can I see it?" not being able to reject his unharming request, I just gave him the book and he read the cover

" 'Storm and Slience' interesting name"

"Yeah! its my favourite"

"Whats it about?"

"its a story set in the 19th century, where girls dont have freedom to work but were just expected to look pretty and sit at home doing household chores, the protagonist is against all this and opposes the mens world and their chivalry, chauvinisum-"

"Strong headed like you, I see"

"wha--what" that got me to stutter

"though you seem shy and docile, I see you being confident and not afraid to answer back, even to Joey sir!, you always stand-up for yourself when neccesary"

He is totally out of his rocker, is he even talking about me?

"Joey sir scares the crap out of me!".

He waved it off with, "he has that effect on everyone"

Not really caring to elongate this conversation, I said "I really have to complete my book", then he became silent for the rest of the ride.

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At home I started working on my homework as I didnt want to stay outside the class for having incompleting homework but my mind drifted of to the conversation with Mattew, I know I don't like him but the fact that he seems interested in me, the silent girl who most of the people don't even glance at, because thats how silent I am and stick to my own circle of friends made me feel special and giddy inside. Don't get me wrong, I did have a guy interested in me previously but that was a brief encounter and he was neven open with me, I am not even sure if that guy was interested in me, I only came to know of it from others telling me. Whereas this is a real encounter and direct interest and attention from a guy. Stop....focus....focus....you need to complete this Skyler...listen to me....

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"Hey lilly!"

"hi" I waved to Serria and sat beside her today as we have slowly started sitting as wished to.

As Joey sir came to class we all wished him good morning and sir directly went to the black board to write some grammer related questions for us making everyone scared and silent. I observed the questions and started sweating as I am not sure of the answers. Sir came straight towards my bench and said " move" while smiling, I gave back a smile and moved into the middle as its a 3 seater bench.

Sir started randomly picking students and asking to write the answers, if one wasn't able to answer them, he picked the next person and so on. He started making small conversation with me asking if I know the answer

" no sir"

"really?"

I just nodded. Some of them gave the answers, that I myself guessed, which made me cross out some guess. After everyone was done, sir called my name and luck reaally was on my side because crossing out my guess, I was left with the right answer.

So, the entire class took hittinggs from sir while most of them couldn't hold it in and cried out from the pain but sir didn't show any mercy actually hit harder on whoever cried. Though I was saved, see all of them still made me scared and my hands to sweat.

Next it was math class but Joey sir still stayed as he did'nt have any other class today, also considering carol teacher is his wife, no one would have objections. They started discussing about student in middle of the class and making fun of them,

"How, can you not answer such an easy question is a mystery to me Brad"

To this Carol teacher laughed saying " yeah, he doesn't even pay attention in my class" for this sir got angry and hit Brad while scolding him to listen to carol ma'am.

They also mocked a senior student saying, he is looking like a gay and laughing to themselves while sipping their tea.

Even today, I felt eyes on from time to time but ignored knowing who it is, I really have to do something about this. Its almost making me feel creepy now.

During lunch time, its common for Joey sir and Carol teacher to sit and eat with us, they also taste students lunch and when they realised I have bought a special breakfast instead of lunch they became curious about this dish. This item should be dipped in Chutney and then eaten, sir followed and loved the flavour of chutney and took 2 more bites. Everyone started making fun of me for bringing tiffin instead of rice like everyone else but I didnt care, I love my tiffin and acutally prefer tiffins to rice items.

In the bus as usual Matthew came to my bus, by now I am sure that this is not his bus as he is not there in the mornings which means this bus doesnt go to his area. Today I was prepared and sat in a 2 seater along with my brother Mikeal but he without any shame said

"Why don't you guys come to this seat, we can have a chat instead of sitting separately and being bored, I can even tell you a nice story Mikeal"

I ofcoure objected but my innocent little brother was excited and started switching places, without much option even I shifted and sat with a heavy sigh.

"I want to tell you something sky"

"Sure"

"You really haven't understood my intensions?"

My eyes bulged out of their sockets at this and the water works have begun in my hands and legs and I was unsure of what to reply. Maybe I am misunderstanding him, I should'nt jump to conclusions so fast, maybe he meant to a good admirer or a friend, thats it, why would anyone want to say have any other type of relationship me...plain old skyler...metaphorically ofcourse...I am not that old already.