Forever

1.

"Scream and things will go wrong for both of us" he whispers in my ear pinning my hands above me head as he stroked my hair and cheek.

I tried pushing him off me by kneeing him in his area but all that did was make him so much more aggressive. 

"Please" i plead in a whisper with waterfalls of tears running down the side of my face.  i felt useless, i knew that no matter what i did this wasn't going to end anytime soon. I lay on my bed weak knowing that this is happening whether i want it to or not. 

I can hear him unzip his pants but wasn't able to open my eyes knowing I would have to face the Devil. I can feel what is going on but I can't do anything to stop it. I can't scream, nobody is home. I can't push him off me, he's about twice my weight and twice as strong as me. I also absolutely can't tell anyone, my mom is finally happy and the last thing I want to do is kill her happiness. 

I hear the front door close as sounds echo through the large house and he jumps off me and quickly zips his pants back up and leaves. Leaves me feeling violated, feeling used, feeling nothing. I can't do anything but crawl to the corner of my room and cry. 

I cry for hours before I head for the shower, feeling dirty. I get into the shower letting the water hit my face, shadowing the tears pouring down my face. I hear a knock on my door. The knock was soft so I knew it was my mom and not Shane. I shut off the water and go to open the door. She walks in and sits on the toilet.

"Me and Shane will be gone for the weekend, wanna invite Zoe to come stay with you or will you be okay because Kalvin and Kloe will be here too. 

Yes all our names started with "K"'s.

"I think I might have Zoe stay the weekend with me" I respond as she walks out of the bathroom.

"Okay, I love you and be safe" my mom responds closing the bathroom door after she leaves. 

Zoe was my best friend since 2nd grade and we are so excited to be going into middle school in the next 3 months. Her and I had been through so much together that I wouldn't want to go through with someone else. In the 12 years of my life I have gone through so much more than some people go through in a lifetime. 

Me~ hey Z. my mom wants 2 know if u wanted 2 come over this weekend cuz her n Shane r leaving 4 the weekend.

Zoe~ yeah sure i'll ask my mom n txt u what she says, hold on brb :)

Zoe~ she said yeah

Me~ okay see u 2morrow at school n u can ride my bus home, dont forget to bring a bag of clothes.

Zoe~ okay im gonna go 2 sleep. night. love u and ttyl

Me~ Love u 2. night

Hey guys, sorry for the intense chapter as the first chapter.

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