Bite Me

Chapter Five: Take A Hint

Jade was asleep, or rather was as asleep as a vampire could be. She was laying in her bed at home, she was aware of that but she was floating in a void of nothingness. When she discovered she didn't need to sleep but missed the feeling she would lay in her bed and close her eyes and find herself in the void. It allowed her to focus and think. A place for just her thoughts with nothing to interrupt her. No time, no feeling, just herself. It was her place to think, and now all she could think about was Tori.

When Jade had seen Tori that first night all she could think of was the chance to tease her. Being a stripper, Jade knew wasn't anything to make fun of, hell they made more than Jade would've if she had to take breaks to write. No it was just the chance to make fun of Vega for her dreams failing. But why did thinking about making fun of Tori make her feel sick. She had gotten close to her over the past week, like when they were back in school after her first breakup with Beck. Tori had been there for her, helped her get through it and in turn Jade let her in. They went and saw movies together, and got coffee, friend things. It brought back a warm feeling in Jade's stomach. But then she shoved Tori away. It was dangerous letting people in and get close so Jade got cold and pushed her away.

And then that last night. When Tori forced her way back in past Jade's walls. She made Jade's legs wobble and her heart beat faster. Her lips tingle and her skin feel electric and still Jade shoved her away. Sealed her off cold and heartless. Even then Jade was a monster, like her father. He pushed people away, cold and cruel and told her it was better that way. If people couldn't hurt you then they couldn't slow you down. That's what he always told her and he was incredibly successful. And Jade wanted that, success, no matter the cost, no matter the bodies she left behind.

But then why did it hurt her so much to see Tori hurt. That cold facade she kept up each night. Jade knew she had been through a lot, but still why was she so cold? Sure Jade had hurt her in the past, but she was trying to make it better wasn't she? Or was Jade just toying with her, like a predator. Was she only after a snack? Sure Tori was beautiful and definitely would be a conquest but wasn't she more than that? Why couldn't Jade stay away. She could have any number of girls in Hollywood if she wanted, yet she kept going back, night after night, paying more and more money just to talk to Tori. Jade felt like she could tell her anything, almost anything. And yet, she couldn't say the one thing she wanted to.

Jade didn't know if it was fear or panic, but she was afraid. She could achieve success no matter what, be a cold soulless monster like her father, and lead a very successful life, or she could give herself a chance and open up. But after everything, did Jade even deserve the chance to be happy? Would Tori even listen to her if she tried to say anything? Would it even matter? Could Jade even let her in? After all she wasn't the same girl from years ago. She was a monster now who preyed on the weak and vulnerable in order to feel stronger. Could Tori even want someone who couldn't take her out in the sun? Someone who could never look themselves in the eye?

Jade rolled onto her side slipping out of the dream, a single tear rolled down her cheek. Jade was scared for the first time in her life. She reached for her phone and looked at the date. She had been in the dream for three days. She bit her cheek and felt a drop of her own blood on her tongue. Forcing herself into a sitting position she stretched herself out. She already knew the answer to her questions, she'd known it for five long years and refused to tell it to herself. Jade West was about to do something batshit crazy, tell Tori Vega she had feelings for her. The question was how? She looked at her phone and saw it was midnight. She smirked to herself, she might just have an idea how to do it, but it would take all day.

Jade looked at her phone. It was 10:00pm. She had been waiting on the roof of the club for the past hour for Cleo to arrive. She hid in the shadows so as to not draw attention. Jade finally saw her walking up the sidewalk across the street and made her move. She dropped down into the alley and waited for her to walk by. As soon as she did, Jade grabbed her arm pulling her into the alley and covered her mouth before she had the chance to scream. It didn't stop her from screaming, only muted the sound. "Shut up will you. I need your help."