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Our first dates

It had been about 2 weeks since we got together, and we didn't have our first official date. It was also almost Christmas break for us, and we knew we wouldn't be able to see each other during that time, so I had an idea. 

Every year, me my mom and my dad would go to a place called Country Christmas. It's a place that people can drive or walk through and see a bunch of Christmas light fixtures. It was a fun tradition, and we still do it to this day. So I wanted to invite riley to come with us and see the lights. Once I had told him about it, he was really excited and liked the idea of us seeing each other outside of school. I knew that would be a night of many firsts. And it was. 

Once the day came, we went to go get him from his house. I remember being so excited for him to finally meet my parents, despite me not meeting his yet. The drive there was kinda awkward. We were able to feel my dads tension in the car. My dad is very, very protective over me, and when he found out that I had my first boyfriend, he was apprehensive. I'm his only daughter, so it makes sense. My mom, however, is a very extroverted person, and she made sure Riley felt at home. It was pretty nice hearing them get along. but I knew that wouldn't be an issue. My mom is a saint. 

Once we got there, I was so beyond excited. I was looking around all over the place like it was my first time there again. That whole night, I could feel him looking at me like I wanted something. I eventually looked at him back. He looked at my hand, and without skipping a beat, I took his hand in mine. At the time, his hand felt so perfect in mine. It felt amazing, so correct. But just as soon as the night started, it ended. I lay on his thighs on the way home and started to drift off to sleep as he played with my hair. Before I knew it, we were dropping him off at home. For me, a lot of that night was  a blur of emotions bubbling up and down over and over. That was when everything began to really feel real. I was certain that he was who I was supposed to be with. But I didn't know how quickly everything would change.  

Our second date was on my birthday. The night before, we both stayed up until midnight so we could both be awake when I turned 14. I felt old. A few weeks prior, we had come up with another date plan. It was for me to go to his house and watch a movie with him. I was so nervous to meet his parents and his little brother that I was shaking the entire car ride there. Before we watched the movie, he wanted to show me his computer setup and his speaker system. He played my favorite songs while his little brother showed me his Minecraft worlds and all his toys. I wasn't used to kids at the time because I'm the youngest in my family, so I wasn't sure if I was making a good impression. Then we went to watch the movie in his living room. We had a huge bowl of popcorn set up for the both of us. That whole night, I knew I wanted to attempt to cuddle with him. At the beginning of the movie, I began to move myself closer and closer until, eventually, our shoulders were touching. I then took his arm and put it around me, so he was holding me. My heart was racing. But I was overjoyed

After the movie, it was time for me to come home. On the way home, all I could do was think about how he was the first person I ever cuddled. I was so giddy telling my mom about it. But then he texted me. "I had a lot of fun tonight." I smiled and replied,"I did too! Thank you for having me over." "Np but do you mind not cuddling me in front of people? I don't want to be made fun of." he said. This confused me. He told me all he wanted to do was hold me, and now that he did, he was embarrassed by it. I brushed it off and didn't worry about it. I told him I understood and that I would only do it when we were alone. On Saturdays, we decided that's when we would see each other, so I figured I could just do it then! I always made sure to make it appoint to communicate in our relationship so nothing bad could happen because we knew we didn't want to lose each other. So I was happy he told me the truth instead of holding it all in.