God why am such a mess, why did I have to fuck everything up why did I have too be alive at all! All I do is fuck shit up and I just want the pain to stop I hate that no one will understand the back stabing , heart wrenching pain I go threw every time I look at a guy young or old i don't FUCKING get it why dose everyone has to fuck with my emotions and make me feel like I'd be better off dead and I can't do this shit anymore I'm done with getting hurt so I'd be better off in a mental institution were I'm not allowed to even use a pair of scissors without people watching my every move ...you know what no that doesn't sound like fun death on the other hand dose because then I'd make everyone happy and I'd do the world a favor by doing so anyway so I wouldn't be doing anything wrong in the first place. I don't understand why people have to constantly lie to me about anything and everything under the sun, why can't they see the pain I'm going threw every day I'm alive? Why can't they see..why can't they see the pain.
