LITTLE POEMS BIG EMOTIONS

Messy

I'd like to start my little poems with one of the longest I probably ever wrote. I hope your eyes can focus enough

I am leaking, making a mess. As I shattered and put myself up again. I start to notice the visible old cracks. Filled with color, they'll never fade away. Who could love a boy like this. I can't hold your flowers, since I'll pour their life out. Not even plastic ones stay inside, as I fall apart. I wish to be less fragile and instead have some strenght. Otherwise, how am I supposed to take care of you if I can't of myself? I try my best to suck it up, but my best is not enough. As I tire us out, and metallic plants start to dry. I try to clean the table. Everything is covered in red, my eyes are too. My fingertips burn. I muffle my scream, and I sing a song instead. Is it pretty enough to move your head? To make you spin and laugh with me. For us to be together and never part. Do you think I'll be enough? I doubt myself, since I am me. I can't stop talking and saying mean things. I love silence, but yet I never keep it. Rage in my veins makes me feel so silly. Why are you pink? Oh right, you're mad. Look in the mirror. Is that your face? Do you really think that this is okay? You have no regret. No remorse. You like this loop. You like this hole. You dig way deeper, not to find anything. You do it to burry your bones. Do you really think that's the best option? Didn't you want to dance in the rain? This way you'll drown instead of getting just a bit wet. It's okay, you did a long time ago, as salt entered your mouth. It burns mother nature! Worse than on my hands! But I don't think anyone cares. Why sob? Why talk? Don't bother again. Have you picked up your pieces? Like you would for your friends? I guess you shouldn't, since you hate yourself. But am I surprised? Not in the slightest. I know you the longest. You never were that mask you wear. You put on a show and laugh it away. You clearly know that if you'll stop that dance, it'll come out of the dark and bite you again. Infected or not, another bite hurts. Play your role until you're tired. Maybe then it'll be gone