CRUSHCRUSHCRUSH. heejake. ✓

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noona

i fucked up

what happened jakey

i said some really fucked up
stuff to my friends and i
dont think they'll ever forgive
me

i don't even know why i said
it either

i didn't mean it

don't be mad at me when i
tell you please

jake what did you say

what happened

tell me

my friends kept accusing
me of liking heeseung
hyung

and it wasn't a joke this
time and i said some really
nasty stuff like being gay
is disgusting and that i
would never like hyung

and i feel so bad because i
didn't mean any of it

oh

i'm not going to coddle you
because you're right, it was
real nasty to say to them
especially knowing most of
them are queer.

but i will say there is nothing
wrong with being gay, you
know that, right?

i know

I know THAT.

my friends are gay and i
still love them. it doesn't
matter to me who they like

it's not that it's just i can't
like men i don't i don't like
men.

its not okay

and why not

why is it not okay for you
to like men

it's just not.

i don't know why

i don't care that my friends
like men but i don't

i can't like men

jake. i really meant it when
i said that there's nothing
wrong with being gay.

it's okay. sexuality doesn't
change a person

you're still you at the end
of the day

and i said i know that

you're not listening to me

no you're not listening to
me.

it's okay to be gay it's okay
if you like men

we both grew up christian
with conservative parents
i understand why you're
worried

it took me forever to admit
that i was bisexual for the
same reason

wanting your parent's
approval won't change who
you are.

im not gay.

okay.

okay so maybe you're not
gay but at least be honest
with me about one thing.

how do you really feel
about heeseung?

i don't know

can we just not talk about
this right now. i just need
to be alone for  a while

okay thats fine

but you can't avoid this
conversation forever.

be honest with yourself for
once.

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