SECRETS LEFT BEHIND

II. TRY MY BEST

SKY

Sitting in a field on a Saturday morning, The tulips around me make me feel free and light. Looking at the sky, The birds whistled. And my mom is lying beside me, Humming her favorite song.
" Do you appreciate life?" This unexpected question proceeded to stop my movements and turned to her. Her blonde hair falling over her shoulders. The feeling of worry haunting her blue iris. " Do you enjoy living?"
I quit down for a moment, Thinking of an answer until I finally got it." I live under a roof without worry about adulthood problems, I have a brother who is basically my best friend, I have a stepdad who treats me like his own daughter, And most of all I have an amazing mom willing to do anything for my happiness" Smiling during this speech, My mind went to my house. That place is filled with love and affection. This house contains the members of my family, The people I care about most. That house was my home.
Her proud look warmed my heart. Cupping my cheek with her soft hand, Caressing me with her thumb." I love you, Little angel"
I smiled, putting my hand on hers." I love you too, Mom"
I suddenly woke up when I felt someone shaking me.
" You're out of control" She blamed me. I was still half asleep and it's surely not the moment for accusations." You said you're gonna wake up"
" Aria" hiding , my face with my pillow, I shouted." Leave me alone"
" I'm sure as hell not leaving you alone" She grabbed my pillow and threw it across the room." You're fucking late for your first day"
Realization hit me.
It's my first day.
And I'm fucking late.
I rushed to my phone, seeing that it was 7:36AM, I jumped up, running to the bathroom getting ready.
" Why didn't you wake me up?" I was brushing my hair in a hurry, Yelling from across the room.
" I woke you up thirty minutes ago, I was gonna grab vanilla since we didn't bring yesterday" She shouted." You said you're gonna wake up".
" Shit" I blurted." Always happening to me".
" I thought you would wake up" She walked in the bathroom.
" Well, I didn't. Next time, check twice" These words came out in a scream.
" DON'T YELL AT ME " she shouted.
My heart torned when I saw her looking at me with watery eyes and anger flashing through them.
I threw myself on her. Holding her between my arms and nestled her head in my neck.
" I'm really sorry" the guilt going through my body at this moment made me want to throw up. I was mad at myself for not waking up. She didn't do anything wrong and I still managed to blame her for something that is a hundred percent my fault. I'm fucking stupid.
Stupid,stupid, stupid.
" it's okay" Her words made my heart ripped harder. It was everything but okay.
" it's not, I'm sorry". She hugged me harder and let go of me.
She looked at me with red eyes and a big smile trying to hide her frustration.
I'm stupid, Dumb, Cruel.
I'm a monster.
She wiped her tears away while I was staring at the floor, Letting my mind consume me for the horrible act I just did.
That's stupid, I got mad for nothing.
Absolutely nothing.
And blamed it on her.
I'm stupid.
I'm fucking dumb.
I'm horrible.
" Sky, Let's go" Getting me out of my thoughts. I looked straight into her eyes. Her green eyes that were earlier red, Came back to normal ." You're gonna be more late than you already are". She grabbed my bag and clothes, handed them to me and closed the bathroom door.
I'm stupid.
After I hurried getting ready , The class had already started. I ran through the hallways looking for my class. The hallways were large and long and it was literally a labyrinth. When I got in front of the class and knocked quickly before opening the door and standing in front of at least forty people. My social anxiety kicked in, I looked at my left to see the teacher waiting for me to talk.
" I apologize for my late entrance" I gave her an uncomfortable smile, Hoping she wouldn't say anything about this whole situation.
" Miss Skylar Walker, Right?" She said with a calm but suspicious tone walking slowly toward me.
My heart beating fast, I swallowed my stress, Waiting for her to kick me out of her class.
I noded approving.
" It's 8:13 AM" She looked straight in my eyes, Still walking like some monster in a horror movie. " Class starts at 8AM, What made you come up here so late?"
So late, I wouldn't say that.
Thirteen minutes aren't that big of a deal.
" I slept through my alarm" I admitted, Feeling ashamed.
She tapped her pencil against the big white board.
She's terrifying.
She should totally audition in a horror movie, I believe she'd get the role.
" Go take a seat beside Mr. Parker, You're paired up for the rest of the year and this better never happen again "
Mr.Parker Of fucking course.
Always there.
I looked through the class room until my eyes fell on the electric eyes. He was sitting at the end of the class, In the left corner, An empty seat beside him.
" Is there any other seat available?: I said in a small voice.
" No"hard and cold.
I better shut up.
I walked to the end of the class, People were murmuring and giving me discreet looks. Not so discreet.
Are they judging me?
They're judging me.
Feeling like I don't fit it, I sat beside the asswhole letting my confidence disappear.
" I guess we're paired now, Princess"
" Don't remind me," I let my head fall on the table." And don't call me that ".
" Late for your first day" He shook his head in disapproval." Not so professional of you"
" Shut up" I grabbed my head between my hands. My mind is gonna explode.
" Never"
Too bad.
I grabbed his pencil case and hit it on the head with it and threw it on the floor. I smirked at him waiting to watch him kneel for it. Without thinking twice, He grabbed mine and threw it in my direction. Holding my face in my hands after the sharpener hit my nose. My eyes started watering and I felt my face turning red. I looked at him, He bent down, Grabbing his pencil case. When his eyes met mine, His earlier smirk faded and worry replaced it. He leaned down to see a tear of pain falling down my cheek.
" You okay? Did I hurt you?" His tone was calm but his facial expression betrayed him.
" The sharpener hit my nose, Idiot" I wiped my tears and adjusted myself on the seat. The pain was fading away.
" I didn't mean to hurt you" He said, Eyes on me.
" Well, I meant to hurt you," I told him, turning my head to face him.
A smile appeared on his lips. He looked down at the table. His smile annoyed me. Out of control, I grabbed the collar of his uniform and told him what I've been dying to say since I sat on this chair." Your voice is the worst sound to my ears."I held eye contact to see any type of emotion in them." So, If I ever hear you say any word during this class for the rest of the year, I'll cut your tongue. Get it?" My words didn't have the effect I was wishing for. Instead, He leaned closer and tapped my nose with a smile.
" So cute"
I let go of him, Boiling inside. I'll just ignore him. Easy.
It was time for lunch and I joined the girls on their table. Isaac and Jayce were sitting on the opposite chairs. Another guy was sitting beside Jayce and he strangely looked similar to him. But they all informed me that it was Jayce's twin, Josh. I wasn't surprised. They had almost the same features but you can easily recognize them.
" Why did you only pick up water and an apple?" Cora said, Slightly frowning.
" I'm not really hungry " I told her, Avoiding any type of eye contact with her so she won't have the chance to read the dark place that is my mind.
My fear.
" What happened this morning when you got to class? " Saved by Aria, She changed the subject.
" I got embarrassed," I explained, remembering the terrible moment." And I got paired up with-"
" Me " a rough voice was heard behind me.
The asswhole sat beside Isaac, Jayce was adjusting himself, His hand inside his jeans . We all looked at him taking a 100 dollars out of his pocket and discreetly handing it to Isaac. But before he could grab it, The idiot snatched the dollars and threw a murderous look at the guys.
" You bet?" His tone was cold." Again?"
" Not me," Josh said, Raising his hands as a sign of his innocence." Them". He pointed his finger at the two guys sitting beside him. Their mouths were wide open from the betrayal they're living. The sight of them snatched a chuckle out of me. That's when Aria and Ivy bursted into laughter.
" You guys serious" This time, His cold face fell and gave place to his annoyance toward his friends.
" We just bet that you'd have a class in common" Acting all innocent, Isaac wrapped his arm around Jayce's neck.
" And that you'd get paired up" Jayce's words were barely heard But the asswhole heard and hit the back of his friend's head.
" It had to go this way!" Isaac shouted." That was obvious it was going to happen and then boom married with babies"
" Ew" Both of me and the asshole said in one voice.
" See," Isaac blurted out, opening his arms.
" Isaac," I said, turning his attention to me." Don't ever say something like that" I put my hand on my chest with a disgusted expression." I feel like I'm gonna throw up".
" Throw up what?" He said frowning." You didn't eat anything".
My heart dropped and decided to not show anything. So instead I got up and said." You wanted it".
Moving like lightning, Both of us started running around, Crossing hallways.
" SORRY SKY!" He screamed.
" TOO LATE" But before I got him, He found refuge inside the boys restroom.
Unfair.
Fucking unfair.
" I'll get you, you know that" I screeched, pointing my finger at him.
" Not for now ". He smirked.
" Sleep with one eye open tonight" I threatened before disappearing in the hallways.
After school, I decided to go to the library and read. I was sitting on a red window seat. The library had two floors and the tall wooden bookshelves held thousands of books. The decoration was like the rest of the school, Red and gold.
" The inheritance games ". The same voice that was annoying me since yesterday broke the peaceful silence.
" You're everywhere aren't you?" I raised my head, My eyes meeting his. The deep blue in his eyes reminded me of the ocean.
" I guess" Was his only answer before sitting beside me. I closed my book waiting for him to leave and bring my peace back. But he didn't, He just kept on looking at me analyzing every inch of my face.
" What do you want?" I broke the silence.
" Nothing," He smirked." I'm just sitting.
Raising my eyebrow, His insolence makes me boil from the inside." Just sitting?" I wore a confused face." So all these seats aren't enough for you, You had to sit next to me?".
" Yes, And I also wanted to ask about your thoughts on the book" He simply explained." It's my favorite".
" You read it?". Him reading was the last thing I could've imagined. He seems more like a sporty guy than a reader.
" See all these books?" He pointed at the different universes held between pages, Books. His arm wrapped my shoulders. Second time, It's the second time he did that. The first time was when he was my guide yesterday." I read them all".
His confession widened my eyes.
He read all those books.
Two floors full of books.
A whole library.
I turned my face to look at him, So he did. Blue eyes meeting each other. An electric wave passed through my body. And at the same time, His eyes went from my eyes to my lips. Panic taking control of me, I pushed his arm away from me and got up.
" I need to go study" I didn't have time to say anything before he left. Leaving me standing there. Staring out of the window, I kept on thinking of what just happened.
He's crazy.
Why did he just do that?
Why did he look at me that way?
What if I didn't push him away?
" Stop it" I murmured to myself, Grabbing my backpack leaving the library.
I need sleep.