You Never Know Me

I love you but I can't live with you (3rd chapter)

"How much we try to be practical , but heart doesn't know the practicality... When we try to convince ourselves, that be practical, but love can easily found the way..... Though the ending of the way may be beyond our imagination...... "

          What if you love someone unconditionally, but in return you get love with conditions...., do you think is it a good sign that you are not be rejected? Or is it worse than the rejection?....

       After the thrilling and threating encounter between me and nitisha , I will become restless and a little bit despo for sharing my feelings.... Though before the incident I was a little bit confused, but after facing that weird situation,I got to know my hidden feelings towards adhu... I know that adhu can reject me, still I had to do it, because for my adhu," my love", "my lifeline".... , I couldn't lose  adhu...

           I prepared myself that a big fight and shocking truth is waiting for me, . . . But I didn't care... Because adhu is my first priority... (I have to win this game, if the result is my death, seriously doesn't matter.... Thinking in my mind).... So I had decided, that I had to talk with adhu, and had to clear this cold War....

Rati:what's your problem buddy? Why are you avoiding me?

Adhu:what problem? Nothing... I am just a little bit busy for our upcoming college fest...

Rati:oh! Really? Am I too foolish?  I have known you since childhood days, now you are so busy , that you have no  time to talk with me.... Wow! What an  excuse!

Adhu:have I done any crime? Or am I a habit for you that , I have to entertained  you..... Say na..

Rati:what's wrong adhu? Why are you talking so rudely? You are my best friend. So I think I have a right on you... Is this a problem? I never see this adhu.... Please don't change.... I can't live without you... (A tear dropped from my eyes).

Adhu:Don't do the girly things (means crying... According to adhu's opinion)..
If you continue do this, then I can't live with you... Your behavior with nitisha was bad,... I am disappointed.
Rati :oh! This is the reason. Now I get it... Don't worry I was wrong... And your wish is I should accept my crime... Right, because now I am worthless for you... Ok as you wish.. I have nothing to say....

I couldn't believe" is this our friendship? , which is fading away slowly , and I am nothing for him.... (Thinking in my mind).... Suddenly someone murmured into my ear , "don't worry no body can break your friendship, your adhu is yours... Believe in yourself... I assure you".

  The voice was so powerful and mesmerizing, I couldn't be able to forget the voice, means nitisha's voice... When I heard,I was shivering and  couldn't be able to turned back like, I was hypnotized.... When I turned around, I didn't find out nitisha, then suddenly I saw nitisha , she stood with some  of my friends at the college  main gate, ......
Which was half kilometre far away from college corridor, ... Where I stood... Shocking right! That was my expression..

   " How is this possible? Just now I have heard her voice, I clearly remember, I can't be able to forget her mesmerizing voice... , but with in a second she is there? Am I day dreaming? What's going on... I am puzzled.... Like shit.. "Thinking in my mind.

After that I went to our canteen, where Danny and neha was already present, my mood was so bad.. I was waiting for adhu... My eyes only looked for him..

Danny:what happened rati? Why you are upset? By the way where is adhu?

Adhu:hello guys! I am here. (Suddenly he hugged me tightly. ) are you still upset? You know I have hot temper... Sorry buddy. You are my life.

Rati: oh! Now I am your life... I can't handle your mood swings... So you better be with your new life nitisha...

Suddenly nitisha had came into our canteen.. Nitisha:hi! guys. Am I your today's hot topic...

Rati:I am sorry, please forgive me... I should not be rude with you on that day...
Nitisha:what sorry? You silly girl... We are all friends right...

Adhu:yes, I am trying to explain this small things, but my buddy is beyond everything.... (Smiling)

Nitisha:can I sit here? Actually I love the company of rati...
Rati: yes, why not? It's college property. I have no right to deny you....

Nitisha:I think rati is angry with me.. Right..
Neha: no, no she is a nice person.. just happened a little fight with adhu...

     When everyone busy with chatting, nitisha came closer with me... Said, "don't think about me so much, I am not your first priority.. Right, some one already belongs this category.... Now is not the right time to solve the puzzle... You only can solve... I assure you.. "...

    Then she smiled in a mysterious way.. And left...when our last period had completed by the project submission, I was waiting outside for adhu... Yeha all of you guys thinking , " Where is my anger? "But adhu is my weak point, so  I was  pretending like" I am angry "... That was not true...

Then a shocking incident  happened, I saw adhu and nitisha was hugging each other, and then I got very angry, and felt jealous, but most importantly ,when I saw that flowers, green leaves were falling but only adhu's side, like the flowers and leaves are scared by something, they only touched adhu's body, but on the other side the faded leaves were falling on nitisha's side. "How can this possible? because the wind  is blowing all over, and wind's speed is not bad."  (I was thinking) ....

Then Danny and neha came, said "let's go, ".i was then a different world ... Their voice gave a reality check...

Rati:but adhu?
Danny:some work with nitisha... He told me to inform you...
Rati:ok...

But I was  staring them continuously....And (thinking in my mind) , " How can be? Ami I Overthinking? "Then we stopped in a roadside .. Danny and neha went to a shop.. I was waiting, when I turned back, nitisha was there...

Nitisha:scared already? Don't be, yes the green leaves can't be able to touch my skin... Your observation is mind blowing... Keep it up.

Rati: who are you? I am not scared, (but my lips are trembling)...

Nitisha:why? I am like you. Do you think I am a witch? , but that's not true.. So who am I? You have to find out.. Ok dear, bye.....
 
After her departure I couldn't be able to tell anything to anyone.. On the other side something big had happened... I got to know later.

Adhu and nitisha was going for shopping for my upcoming surprise birthday party..
Adhu:you have already known you are very special for me, otherwise I never go with anyone for shopping except rati.

Nitisha:I know, but I think , you are also special for rati.
Adhu:yes, but like best friend, nothing else.
Nitisha:how can you, so sure that she doesn't love you..
Adhu:I know her better than any one.
Nithisha:oh! Really? Then you actually don't know....

Adhu:let's not discuss about rati. I want to spend my whole life with you, believe me I can feel it, you are my soul mate....

Nitisha:(smiling) so mr. Adhyayan is proposing me, nice, but sorry I can't accept...
Adhu:why? Am I worthless? Not capable...

Nitisha:no, no you are the most perfect guy, in my life I never met anyone like you,but, it's impossible, because I am a fire, if you came close with me, you are destroyed... I can't deserve anyone's love, I am a slow poison...... My touch is a curse......

To be continued with chapter 4th(new life or a curse).. ... (Edited version)