HIS HEAVEN

39. PARTY VENUE

| TAEHYUNG'S POV |

The moment she said to breakup with me, my breathing stopped. I'm no more alive now. Nothing more hurted me this much in my entire life. She knows how much impact she has in my life. Ohh fuck, what the hell is happened just now. You know I never cried this much. And never experienced this much pain too. Not even my mom died.

It's really hurting me beyond. I want her man, she is my oxygen, my entire existence. But now....! She left me after breaking my heart into trillion pieces. I know I'm acting like a dramatic fucker. But it's true. You all know how much I love her and still too.

What she said about me is all a lie. I can sense that. But she is denying and tried to fed me up all the lies. But I never. I will never eat her lies if it includes that motherfucker Sehun. What hurts me more is when she defend that fucker and even told me that she still have feelings for him.

Then what am I? Am I a entertainer who will entertain until the fucker back into her life? How pathetic. But what she says about his love....! Is true though. Ohhh man he really really loves her like a mad guy. But not more than me.

It's true

Not more than me. Period

He came and tried to take my baby away from me. Strangely enough, what he thought turned out to be true. Yeah, my baby left me. She choose him between me and him. I'm feeling worthless. Is my love not enough for her? What did I do less to her? I loved with my life. I thought my life was with her. I even dreamed about my future with her.

Everything I thought was lost in the sea. I want to believe what she said was all damn lies. But the look on her face didn't helps me at all. Its telling me that she is being serious about breaking up with me. But why? Am I not enough? My love not enough? Seriously I'm hurt. Badly hurts.

I want to lock myself in this room and never come out. Is it means....! She will never comeback to me? What if she go back to that fucker again? What if she love him again and being lovey dovey with eachother again?

"Holy fuck!" No, it will never happen right? But didn't she said that she still have feelings for him? What the fuck you are thinking you damn asshole. Stop being like a pathetic dumbass. Yeah they will reunite for sure. But me? What about me? Am I a thing to her? So she will use and then throw me far away and never look back. I'm going crazy.

Now the time is three in the morning but I'm still awake and spending my heartbroken moment in my bar room. I gulped my 7th bottle like a water trying to forget the pain which I'm feeling at the moment she left this place.

"You have no idea how much I hurt because of you." I'm feeling asleep. My eyes tightened and threatening to sleep. Yeah my damn eyes won over my subconscious. Slowly I drifted into deep sleep remembering her angelic face.

TIME SKIPS TO NEXT DAY

The sunlight which is straightly flashed on my face woke me up from my deep sleep. My head hurts like hell. I must be wasted yesterday. Huh? No no today yeah yeah today. My eyes fell on my phone to check the time. Fuck it's two in the afternoon. But nobody tried to wake me up. Kinda weird.

I groaned still holding my head went to bathroom to freshen up. After taking shower, And wearing white shirt with ripped jeans. I went downstairs to fed my tummy which is very angry on me.