DARK DESIRES

CHAPTER TWO

Nut's POV

I never imagined returning back to my hometown would cause me to be so nervous sitting in this flight right now has me thinking like why did my dad have to send a private jet like I could have just taken a commercial flight it's not that serious this is what he wants but I just can't help but hate the stares and the soon to be tabloid headings it just pisses me off every time I have lived peacefully in Singapore with no paparazzis nobody writing about my life me just being the normal person that I want to be not caring if anyone will find out that I'm the son of the richest man in the country those were my best days but now that I know  I'm back in my hometown it's going to be worst like every journalist is going to want a piece of my personal personal life I wish dad could just let me stay in the states and he could just carry on with whatever business he wants but the way he frantically called me the other day urging me to come back for my own safety my dad has never been that scared you can hear it through the phone and that's what made me not to hesitate to return my father can be a pain in the ass but I love him and him being a mafia doesn't help his case I know how they do their dirty  works I just hope we're not in some serious trouble

"Mr supanut , we have begun our descent into New york. Please turn off all portable electronic devices and stow them until we have arrived at the gate"

My anxiety gets a chance to settle in as the pilot makes his final announcement for landing I can't wait to hear what my dad has to say and I know it's going to be bad

After landing I saw numerous black cars with a little too much bodyguards was expecting this show off from dad but not this much let's just get this over with the quicker it's done the faster I'm outta here I literally ran down the

"Welcome home Mr supanut the boss is waiting for you back at the mansion" he smiled looking a little flustered

" Thank you ping " he is one of my dad's most trusted bodyguard and I basically grew up with him I can still remember the day dad came home holding a drench wide eye skinny looking kid we quickly got super close and at one time I started developing feelings for him I couldn't tell if it was something real or just teenage hormones so I kept it to myself for a long time he found out on the day my dad told me I'll be studying abroad supposedly because things in New York was getting a little dangerous it was around the same time my mom got diagnosed with stage 3 cancer and my emotions were all over the place that same day  in the middle of the night when I went in the living room to get some water there I saw ping laying comfortably on the sofa he looks so cute that for a moment I forgot I was in a depressed state I slowly walk over to his side crouched down beside him looking at him his  lashes looks so long my eyes went down on his lips they look so soft with their cherry pink colour I couldn't help myself but trace his lips with my hands I wonder what it would be like to kiss him but as my fingers touched his lips I was instantly thrown into the air and landed on the sofa my hands were held in a tight grip he came back to his senses when he saw the instant fear on my face

"Young master are you okay
what are you doing down here at this hour do you need anything "

with ping on top of me he's body weight pressing down on me I couldn't imagine that my heart was capable of beating so fast

"I'm okay ping and I also told you to stop calling me young master call me nut"

at that moment I felt how tight his grip was on my hand

"and could just let go of my hands for a second cuz it's hurting"  he instantly let go of my hands

"oh I'm really sorry "

we both sat back on the sofa feeling the awkwardness between us

"Hey  I'm sorry I just got carried away" 

I bring my feet up close to my chest and start biting my nails out of habit I was feeling bad and thinking he's going to get mad at me he's not going to want to stand close to me cuz he'll think I'm disgusting I start over thinking his reaction without even looking at his face I'm not worried about my father finding out because I know ping would never tell him  I'm just worried about how he's going to look at me from now on I bet he must be thinking of ways to not get close to me what have I done the instant regret peeking it's rear face in my mind as I was lost in my thoughts I felt the sofa dipped as if someone was getting closer

"young master I don't know how to comfort you I know it's not easy right now and forget about what just happened I know it must be from all of the stress you've been going through I just want you to know that it's going to be okay" he slightly pat my back

That moment I just looked at him feeling my heart sank at his words not at the way he failed miserably to comfort me but at how he just basically told me that we will never be more than what we are basically friend zoning me I didn't want that I want him to understand that I like him so much that I've been keeping it for far too long and all I want to do right now is to just tell him how I feel but I can't find the right words as my heart felt heavy so my body just reacted to what my brain was thinking and I kissed him......

Hahaha what is gonna be ping's reaction find out in the next chapter ♥⁠╣⁠[⁠-⁠_⁠-⁠]⁠╠⁠♥
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