Here for each other ~ Jonadar

Chapter 10

Josh Rock's Point of View

19th November 2023

TW: Swearwords

I stared in absolute shock over at my older boyfriend. I can not believe what I had just heard. I'm not 100% sure that I understood what they said correctly, but I'm pretty sure I did. Just then, Daryl spotted me, and he looked worried for the fact that I knew. "Josh it's not what you think." he tried saying, but I had heard enough. "Daryl. You did what to Nathan?" I asked feeling another tear in my eye forming. I had already cried quite a bit today, but I hadn't expected this day to get even worse. First, me and Bobby had a very uncomfortable talk, and then Scotty tried to kill himself, and now this? I didn't give it a thought at all to wipe the tear away. "Josh, it was--" he tried saying, looking nervous, but keeping up a slight smile. "You raped him?" I asked with a shaky and hurt voice. Daryl bit his lip and looked away, looking guilty about the topic. "Daryl... why?" I asked him with a more serious tone, yet still crying in the process. "I... didn't mean to do it..." he said with the most apologising tone I had ever heard. "But then why? Why did you do it?" I asked, almost shouting at him. "I... I needed it... fuck-- it sounds way more horrible when I say it..." he said, now having tears in his eyes as well. "I was with Gezzy back then... and I... fuck. I really messed up." he said while both sobbing and laughing. "I really love Nathan, but he told me it was over. So I suppose it's just us now..." he said now barely smiling, but full on sobbing. I slowly walked towards him, hugging him tightly. I don't think I can be on Daryl's side in this, but I'm not breaking up with him. And I do forgive him. But what he did was wrong and he shouldn't have done it. But since he said it was around the time him and Gezzy were together, it must have been almost... what? 5 years ago? He hugged me back, and cried onto my shoulder. "I regret it all... but what can I do about that now?" he asked, whilst still continuing to sob onto my shoulder. "Apologise, and try to sound like you actually mean it." I whispered into his ear. He gently kissed me on the cheek, and I felt his tears on my skin. "Daryl." I started saying. "Yeah?" he asked quietly, tightening his grip on me. "Go lay down for a while, I'll go talk to Nathan." I said. He nodded and pulled away. He sat down on the bed and sighed deeply, wiping his tears. I left the room and closed the door softly behind me. There sat Nathan, on the floor, sobbing into his knees. I sighed and sat down next to him, gently patting him on the back. I need to find a way to solve this problem. And quick.