Under the Umbrella of Love

To live Again

I just watched outside in the window while lying in the soft bed in the hospital, the sky is bright I can sense that people are enjoying their life right now. and it sicks me seeing the skies are nice and beautiful that can break my heart. when will this agony stop? 

"Today's Weather is good right? and yes, it is the time to see the brightest side of all the agony you are facing right now. there are saying right that there are always rainbow after the rain." the radio playing.

tsk! rainbow after the rain? shucks that words are not true. how can I live with this life.

"Sol, may gusto ka ba?" my mother asked me while doing something on my feet.

"While we have this good weather, we have a guest right now to join us here. Let as all welcome the Rebel Sky (the famous boy band)"

"Hello everyone, this is the Rebel sky" 

"Ohhh, you are so handsome in person." The radioman says "as part of your incoming concert, the rebel sky will give their fans a gift right. and to talk to with our famous vocalist Sean Rayven."

"Can I call someone?" "Yes, You can Sean"

"ohh, swerte naman kung sino matatawagan ni Sean, alam kong maraming babae naman ang naghihintay. oh Sol? okay ka lang? sorry hindi sinasadya ni mama" I heard my mom talking to me, but I look at her emotionless. I see my feet are bleeding, but I don't feel anything that makes me sadder. since that incident I no longer can walk. I despised that person who save me 'sana namatay nalang ako'.

"Sorry Sol, kukuha muna si mama ng gamot. okay?"tumayo si mama pero nasagi niya ang flower vase kaya nahulog ito at nabasag

"tatanga ko talaga" umalis si mama na hindi niya alam ang gagawin, dahil hindi niya man lang nakita ang luha sa mata ko. 

*Ring* my phone rang, but I don't like to entertain anyone

"Miss, pakisagutan ng phone mo sobrang ingay" walang gana kong kinuha ang phone ko at sinagot ito.

(hello?) sabi ng lalaki sa kabilang linya

"sino to?" 

(This is Sean Rayven Fr-)

"I don't care kung sino ka,  bakit ka tumatawag?" Naiinis kong salita, pero bakit naririnig ko boses ko sa radio.

(Miss, this is from Rebel Sky)

"So what? hindi ko kayo kilala bakit ba kayo tumatawag sa walang kabuluhang bagay" ano bang problema sa mga tao to.

(thank you from answering the call miss, before we end this call can you receive our gift for you, a pair of shoes that is fit in our weather right now?)

Pair of shoes? 

"ayaw ko!"

(ohh, bicycle that is also-)

"Sabi ng ayaw ko! paano ko gagamit ang mga bagay na yan ha? sa tingin niyo joke ba ako? am I joke to you? how can I use that, I can't barely walk? how! wag na kayong tumawag mga bwesit"i 

I throw my phone, but the call is not ended yet.

(sorry miss, we never thought) rinig ko ang boses niyang radioman sa radio.

"Mama! off my phone. mama!"

(Can I say something?) (Hello miss, I know you are the middle in pain right now, but I just want to say that there are brighter side, do not waste your time to look down yourself. Thank you) I stop shouting and listening to the guy Voice that make my heart melted 

(Thank you for living) and the call ended 

"Sol?" after I saw my mother, I cried a loud. 

"Sige lang iiyak mo lang yan anak, nandito lang si mama ha" This is the first time that a person is thankful that I am living