Forests And Wolves

Alicia

I was so still shaking with fear, I was sitting in the car with Felix trying to calm him down, 

"Shh, it's okay baby, dad is here now. We are okay." He was wrapped in my jacket, and he was naked underneath. When suddenly Vulk came inside the car, banged the door shut, and just started driving, Felix calmed down a bit but he was still sniffing, I could just tell Vulk was mad, I mean he had caught me leaving without telling him but still, he could have asked an are you okay? I looked at him and remembered his shoulder was bleeding, and we were not heading toward town but away from it. I look at him as he is speeding. We had been driving for an hour now, i just couldn't stop myself now, I said

"Where are we going?"

"Town border."

"What? Why?" I thought we were going home, or to a safe house, or at least a hospital, anywhere but that. 

"You tell me, you were the one trying to leave without even informing me, driving with Felix at such a speed in the middle of the forest, it may have been very urgent right, so I am dropping you."

"Please stop," I say. Why? why would he stop? he was right I was tryna leave, very urgently, I didn't even tell him, or at least let Felix meet him. I was at fault here. but I don't want to leave, not right now, heck I didn't even want to leave earlier today, I was just so mad, so so mad. "You're bleeding." He looks at me and looks back at the road, he says nothing. "It could get infected, very severely, you need treatment."

"Why do you care?" He says I realize it's the first time he has been mad at me, it's the first time he wasn't doing things according to me, it was the first time he was forcing something at me, it was the first time he wasn't smiling at me, it was the first time he asked me that question. And I had no answer to it. I looked at him trying to answer something as I saw him waiting too, but I couldn't, I couldn't answer him. "That's what I thought." His words weren't mad now, they were sad, very sad. 

I started crying silently, Felix fell asleep in the back seat. I was silently crying thinking it was still night. We drove for another hour or two, the sky was getting lighter, I could see the dense trees, the wind was cool, and birds were chirping, I was crying as we were getting closer and closer to the border. Why was I so sad for doing the thing I always knew I was going to do? Why was I crying because I may never see the man beside me? Why was I crying as if I was leaving home to an alien land of strangers? I didn't know. 

I saw the border, The gate was visible now. I looked at it, my tears all dried under my eyes, and my nose was flowy because of the crying. He stops the car in front of the gate. He steps out of the car and moves towards my door, he opens it and signals me to come out, I hesitate as he holds my hand and pulls me out, he takes me towards the gate, and the bar raises sensing our motion. 

"Here, you can leave, take Felix with you, do whatever you want, all you need to do is cross that line and walk a few meters and then a bus can take you to the city." He removes his wallet and hands me everything in it, a few hundred it must be. I tear up, is he going to make me leave? "Go. And you don't have to look at my face ever again, heck you don't even have to study about wolves, you can raise your child all you like, go." He says looking down. 

"And if I don't want to go?" I say whispering, he looks at me and says,

"You were trying to leave." Almost in tears.

"I was mad, your mom told me I don't belong here, that Felix isn't my son, and to maintain distance from you, she was talking to me and I didn't like it one bit, and earlier I read a book about wolves killing torturing humans who came in their w-" I say crying but I couldn't finish as he says

"You I would do that?" He says as a tear slips down his eye.

"How will I know? I have only been here for a week and everything is so new to me it's so overwhelming-"

He interrupts me again as he says

"You are mate, for god's sake Alicia. My wolf-   it-. You are I see when I am around you, I want to always be around you, I won't always protect you and make you feel happy, I want to kiss you and pamper you and raise Felix with you, I just- You are my pup's mom, you are my mate. Since the first time I have laid eyes on you, the wolf has been chanting MATE, MATE, MATE. I have tried everything to impress you this week, It doesn't matter what to do, and neither do I. I am shocked at his words, mate is a big thing here. Wolves die without their mates, wolves fall sick when rejected. And he is telling me I am his mate? Well that explains a lot for what it's worth but-

"I don't know what Mom said, or what shitty book you have read. But have I ever misbehaved with you, ever made you mad, have you ever been sad with me? If not then, why are you leaving me? Don't leave me." He says as he looks at me sobbing. I cry as I hug him tight.

"I am sorry. I am so sorry. I am not gonna leave you." he looks at me, wrapping his arms around me and sniffing my neck.

"Really? Why?"

"Because you are Felix's dad, and I am this pack's Luna. And you my Alpha, Alpha." He looks at me and pulls me into a kiss. I gasp as I melt in, he kisses me gently, full of feelings and I can feel his sincerity and his promises. I ask myself again, do I want this? Yes, Yes I do.