I wish I could talk to you

I wish I could talk to you.. the agony from your absence is more than enough. The agony is more than enough for several lifetimes.

I miss our conversations. We seemed to really click. Talking to you was just so easy. Nothing felt forced or awkward. I was completely at ease.

The time never stood still. A few hours of Talking to you could fly by like minutes. And now, the time without you just drags on.

Interacting with you felt good, too good. So good that I ignored the fact that we were toxic for each other in some way. We hurt each other.

I wish we could fix this. I want to reach out to you so bad. But I know that it would lead to more pain for both of us. I can't go through this pain again. It was too much.

I wish things were different for us, but fate keeps pushing us away from each other. Maybe we just have to accept it. Or maybe you meant  so  much more to me than I meant to you.

But before I go, just know that even though we just talked about so many nothings, talking to you about so many nothings has meant more to me than the somethings that were supposed to mean more.