Life Was Colorless, Until You Came

10# You're Always On My Mind

"Why did I even say that?!?!!! Lord, help me... Please... Tell me that everything I told her wasn't real and it was just an imagination." Soobin was rolling on his bed while screaming things on his pillow. He still couldn't get over that he actually confessed to Liwoun. Well that was embarrassing. "I Love You?!?!!! That's bullshit!! I want to jump off a cliff so bad... What do I do??... I can't even close my eyes for a second because all I think of is Liwoun, Liwoun, Liwoun, Liwoun. What the fuck is my problem with her?!?!!" He threw his pillow across the room as he stared below the roof.

"This is a fucking nightmare."

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Soobin was clearly in a bad mood and didn't want to talk to anyone. Even Taehyun, he's that embarrassed. In class, he just stayed quiet and minded his own business the whole entire time. He didn't even bother to make eye contact with everyone he knew. He was just in his own little world. The thing that he only did to give him company was taking pictures, and he seemed to have taken alot of pictures.

Soobin sat under the tree as he looked at the pictures he took and immediately noticed Liwoun coming towards him. "Here she comes again." He picked his things up and Immediately ran away. Seeing him avoid made Liwoun a little upset cause she thought that he was kind of... Heartbroken because of yesterday. She just wanted to talk to him and make sure that he was okay, that's all. But she didn't expect him to avoid her again. The reason behind why Soobin was avoiding Liwoun is because he was super embarrassed. He didn't want to think of all the things he said to her so he thought that avoiding her for like... A day would change and make it better for him! That's a bad idea.

Liwoun wanted to go to him again but she just stopped herself realizing that Soobin would just run away again. "There's no point in keeping on chasing him... He'll just try to avoid me again and again. I'll give him some time, he's probably embarrassed because of yesterday." She let out a big sigh and walked back to Taehyun. "What happened?" — "I'm gonna give him some time and maybe talk to him tomorrow." Taehyun already knew all the things Soobin said to Liwoun. Bro, she's a snitch bro... Well, their relationship still seems to be going smooth. But Taehyun felt different now that he knew his friend has feelings for his girlfriend.

"Okay then, let's go." He held her hand as they both walked to the cafeteria since it was already lunch break. As always, Soobin was sitting alone outside. He kept taking pictures not even knowing what to do anymore, it's like the inside of his head was blank. Even though he doesn't always have someone to talk to, he actually does. He talks to him everyday, everytime, every hour, every minute, every second, and every millisecond. "I hope Ms. Pretty Smile didn't hear it as like. For me, like is something... Something that doesn't last forever. It's just what you like at first place but as time passes by, it disappears. That's what I thought of you when I first saw you." He lowered his camera and started to print an image as he kept talking to himself. "But guess what Ms. Pretty Smile, you were lucky enough to steal my heart. If it was me and not Taehyun, I would've treated you like photography... I Love Photography with my whole heart."

"Who knew confessing to someone could be so embarrassing??... I put a lot of thought into that. I even waited a month before confessing cause I had to do a background check to see my feelings for you were real or fake. This is fucking bullshit... Being romantic is not really my thing. But for you, I became a thing in earth that's admiring you while someone else is admiring you harder." Soobin took out the picture and stacked it with the others.

"That made me gag, that's such a hideous thing to say. I could literally vomit right now if you'll allow me to."

"Stay in character you motherfuc-"

"Anyways, forget about what I said because that was horrible. I know how much Taehyun loves you and I can see how much he admired you just from his hair. Oh wait... That sounds kinda wrong. Does Liwoun know she's his third girlfriend? There's a possibility that she knows and also a possibility that she doesn't. He tells people if he wants to, but he doesn't if he doesn't want to. Well... I forced him to tell me. It's like I was pointing a gun on his head."

"Imagine that? Taehyun pulled a japanese girl that doesn't even know how to speak korean. Who exactly pulled one? Did Liwoun pull Taehyun or Taehyun pulled Liwoun? Or did Liwoun pull me? Hmmm... Anyways, if I confessed to her in korean, it would be less embarrassing. But everyone else would understand it, that would he be more embarrassing. Nevermind, I change my mind. I'm fine that I confessed in japanese. Well... Atleast now she knows how I feel."

Soobin put his camera aside and went to look at the pictures. As he was looking at the pictures, he felt someone sit beside him. He wanted to run away like it was some robber that sat beside him but something told him that he should probably just stay. "Hi." — "get the hell out of my face, pig-" Soobin looked to see who it was, and it was a member from his club. He takes back what he said but at the same time, he doesn't. Cause that member that's sitting beside him now, is a girl that has a crush on him. "What do you want?" — "oh... Wow... I did not expect you to call me a pig. Are you in a bad mood?"

"Yes, now that I saw you."

"Jeez, calm down. You're always mad." — "who do you think makes me mad?" Soobin was clearly talking about the girl right now... "I just wanted to ask something." — "sorry, not interested. Got that? Now go away."

"This is why you don't have friends-"

"This is why your sibling hates you."

"How did you- what?!?!!!"

Soobin grabbed his camera and put it in his side thinking she would steal it and then run away. "Just get straight to the point. What are you gonna ask me?" He looked at her impatiently waiting for her to ask something. Just from her eyes, Soobin could clearly see that she was gonna ask something that's gonna lead to some... Things that he doesn't want to happen. "Could you maybe... Go to our classroom later?" — "no, I'm not gonna listen to you yap about how you like me for the hundredth time." The girl let out a big sigh cause he's basically reading her mind now. "If you won't agree... What can I do?" Soobin kept staring at her then he suddenly started laughing out of nowhere. "Why are you laughing about?" 

"The least you could do for me is to shut up." He carried his things and went to another leaving the girl alone. "Why is he so hard to get?..."

Cause he loves another, girl. Soobin's heart is hard as rock, but it softens when he sees someone he loves. But his heart clearly becomes harder when he sees you, girl. He definitely does not like you.

"Oh."