It's not Okay (ereri/riren)

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⚠️WARNING FOR ANYONE WHO SKIPPED DESC: This story contains themes and mentions of sexual/verbal/physical abuse, sexual assault, rape, self harm, eating disorders, and drug use. I will not warn by chapter, this is the only warning. So if you are uncomfortable with any of these topics, please don't read!⚠️

"Eren! Eren! Wake up! It's almost time for lunch!"

Eren groans and lazily lifts his head up from the desk while rubbing his eyes. The classmate who woke him up, along with a few others that were sitting near and were well aware that Eren fell asleep ages ago, were giggling at him. Eren scoffed at the boy.

"Gosh, Jean, I thought you said you wouldn't let me fall asleep again. What lesson did i miss this time?" Eren said with annoyance laced in his tone. Jean flashed him a warm smile in response. "Relax, it was just a review of everything we did yesterday. I caught you up on it already so you should be fine."

The bell rang and the sound of eager footsteps filled the classroom and then echoed through the hallway. Eren took his time gathering his binders, still trying to fully wake up. Jean waited patiently for him as the class soon became empty.

By the time Eren had gotten everything, he looked up to see Jean looking at him with a slightly flushed face, looking nervous as he shuffled his feet along the floor and brushed his neck. Eren shot him a look of concern before hesitantly asking, "Jean? Are you... okay?" Jean somehow became even more flushed at Eren's question before quickly stuttering out, "What! N-n-no I'm okay! I was just- well- I was just gonna tell you something b-but, I think it should wait til recess. Is that- uh, okay?"

By the time Jean was done speaking, his face was turned completely away from Eren and it was the brightest red Eren had ever seen on somebody before. Eren couldn't help but to find it cute and had to hold back a smile, but he was also very worried that something was terribly wrong, he had no idea what it was. He placed a comforting hand on Jean's shoulder. "Of course, Jean, as long as you're okay. You can tell me anything anytime okay?"

Jean was then too flushed to answer him, and just nodded, still avoiding his gaze. Eren became even more worried when Jean continued to avoid eye contact, but tried to shrug it off until recess.

They made their way to the cafeteria, sitting next to each other as they always had, and luckily had normal conversation despite what happened moments prior. Eren kept having a nagging feeling in the back of his head, eager for lunch to be over with so he can know what's going on with his best friend. He noticed Jean's eyes constantly on the clock, and he seemed to get more and more nervous as the time ticked closer to the bell. Out of the blue, Eren shyly reminded Jean that if he didn't want to tell him what he was planning to say, he didn't have to, but Jean insisted that he did. This made Eren grow even more apprehensive about the whole thing.

Eventually, the bell did ring, signaling for everyone to go outside if they wanted to, and almost everyone started running out the doors and into the field. Usually, they would also be racing to get outside and be the first ones to make it to play kickball, but today they took their time, both feeling incredibly nervous for different reasons.

Trying to maintain a normal atmosphere for as long as possible, Jean stated, "You know, I'll never understand why we still have recess. I mean, I'm in eighth grade after all. You're in seventh. We're basically in highschool."

Eren shrugged at that. "I mean, I guess, but I think we'll miss having this social hour in high school. Plus it seems to be a good thing right now, considering you got something to tell me," Eren said the last part quietly. Jean gulped.