The tragedy of Takemichi

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Takemichi a weak boy his girlfriend had just cheated on him currently his age was 14 he was in a gang called Toman his friends all one and caring but hey never asked if he was truly okay except one person Manjiro Sano. Mikey his Mikey 

Takemichi was layed on his bed wrapped up in a blanket crying his eyes out why you may ask well words can physically not describe the pain he feels

However I shall try as him and I share the same beliefs but it's hard to understand so please try to feel what is happening to this poor man 

This is what Hanagaki Takemichi thought 

If someone died You would miss them right?

If you died you would miss the people who miss you?

But why when we finally disappear is it that we always in our final moments think about what we could've done different 

Personally I think about death all the time will I survive today or will I die will life hit me with a tragedy or not but what I can be sure on is that no matter what happens to me no one will care if I die if I live I'm no one just a useless person who exists 

What even is the point of life anyway?

Are we just born to suffer?

What even is life why do we bring people into our lives just to suffer I mean what happens if we die do we fade into nothing ness I mean if we die is heaven real? Is hell real? 

One thing I am scared about is death but one who is scared of death is also attracjted to it.

I'm not scared of death itself I'd much rather die right now but when I think of death I'm happy but one thing that I fear I truly fear is what happens after death?

Does everything fade to black?

Do we live in our memories?

Are we reborn?

What happens?

Wel I certainly want to know.

When life is hard people say you will get over it you'll move on but how are we supposed to move on when we're traumatised? What do we do about trauma?

I Hanagaki Takemichi am scared of nothing but what happens after death every key event that has happens in my pathetic 26 years of living has lead me to this shitty life.

From a mere child I was @bused physically and mentally 

Actually sold off to some rich guy when I was 8 life was hell for those next 2 years of my life but everything went from black to even darker. When I was 10 I was saved from the torture of that p3d0 

But I escaped into worse hands.... A abusive R@pist life was dull science then but I made some friends 

Life took a turn from tradgic to horror 

My life died

Akkun my beloved friend pushed me onto the train tracks I time leaped met naoto.

Hina died

 Kisaki ruined everything.

I'm friends with Mikey sure but why? I mean like what is the point of living I should just die I was meant to anyways but stupid time leaping wouldn't let me rest 

But would they miss me 

When I believe something don't think that you have to believe it to but if I think something don't believe it 

When I see something that you don't 

Don't ask 

Just ignore it 

I'm the sole reason alone that everyone is suffering 

Hina died because of me 

Everyone died because of me 

It's my fault 

If I hadn't have existed no they would be happy 

They would survive 

They would live