BEcause

Chapter 11

Jiu pov

"it's raining" said Gahyeon while looking outside through the window.

"indeed... it will be very cold" I tried to eat my food but get distracted because ever since Gahyeon said 'it's raining', she didn't stop looking to the rain. My gut saying that she want to plays in the rain but in the same time I feel it really wrong.

"Gahyeon-ie?" she didn't answer. I could see the hand that she use to hold the fork, getting into a tight grip.

"gahyeon-ie?" still no answer. I tap her hand slightly, but she just really shook. Her eyes widening while her breath getting faster.

"are you okay?" she nodded slowly and eat to her food.

Both of us just eat in silence, well maybe only me. Because every time the thunder strike, Gahyeon will close her eyes really tight and looking down. I don't know if she just scared to the sound of the thunder, but I guess closing the curtain will be a great idea.

"eonnie?" I look at her while she playing to the broccoli on her plate.

"can we have a rain ride?"

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In the whole ride, she just stay silence while looking outside the window. Every time I stop in the red light, she will scroll down the window and stick her hand out to catch the rain. I still can't understand what happen to her because her face expression and her body language just really different. Her face is really flat as if she either like or no the rain, while her body language tell me that she love the rain. I can't read her face until she start crying. She didn't mind to scroll up the window. She just crying while her hand stick outside. It's about 11 pm, and no much vehicle around.

"I miss them... but I hate them..." them who? I don't know what happen to me, but I just stop near the park that we met at the first time. I want to talk to her but she already open the door and sitting on the swing.

"GAHYEON-IE IT'S RAINING. YOU WILL GET COLD!" she didn't hear to me. Instead she swings her self on the swing as if there is not rain there. she still crying. But in the middle of her cry, she giggling to herself. Not a happy giggle, I guess it's a pity giggle. Pity of herself. Her cloth already soaking wet because of the rain yet she looks like she didn't care at all. She still crying there which make me take the umbrella that I always put and put it on her to cover her from the rain.

"I still want to play" said her while wiping off her tears and smile faintly toward me.

"but you can get cold" she chuckled sarcasm.

"you don't understand"

"then make me" I just want to make her safe but there something that she hide. She exhale a heavy sigh while pushing the umbrella to let the rain touch her again.

"my parents will never let me get in the house every time I make something that outside what they wanted. No food, no proper cloth, no light, no roof, just me outside. They demand me to get perfect score, the demand me to became polite, the demand me to became a princess, the demand me to became a weak girl and never let out any opinion, they demand me to not hit people even they make fun toward me. They don't care if outside were fricking hot, drown, windy, or snowy. They won't let me in unless they get what they want or they are in a good mood. That day, I choose to run away because I already had enough to them. Yoohyeon's Family helping me a lot because they understand and they know what happen in my family. They are also the one that every time my parents looking at me, they always saying that Gahyeon already left. The apartment room and the car, everything from them. I owe them a lot. That's why every time it's raining, I need to get my self together. Because every time my parents won't let me get in to the house, always every heavy rain. The memories from that cruel house still stick in me. The moment where I knock your room because of the thunder, it triggered me that much" everything just explaining why she act really strange in every rain. She got the trauma from her parents when she was young. I still don't believe that my family is the one that helping her and I don't realize.