Stolitz analysis after apology tour‼️

Erm I guess this technically is my first time posting on wattpad so hey lol

so apology tour was released yesterday and I genuinely feel so bad, I'm so upset at blitzø but also just at the situation in general, granted I know stolas also screwed up but at least he had the balls to fix it and correct his actions and himself, for example: stoping using petnames and calling him blitzø instead of blitzy. which really shows the respect he has for blitzø and I think it's so sad that blitzø doesn't know that. I think for blitzø it's just easier to think people don't like him because if they don't like him he doesn't have to try to be likable, not to mention he doesn't even feel likeable in the first place, let alone lovable. he genuinely believes no one could love him which is unfortunately because stolas does, but he cannot see that because I think that stolas originally may *have* just wanted sex hence the creation of the arrangement in the first place. but along the way he slowly started to fall for him, progressively getting more and more lovey dovey and romantic, but since he's never had a real romantic relationship, let alone with an imp, he doesn't know how to be romantic or endearing towards someone so it ended up sounding condescending especially with the notions and system of hells hierarchy regarding imps. and because of that he would say things like "my impish little plaything" and "my darling little blitzy" which genuinely was meant with good intentions... however to blitzø it came off like he was being looked down on or babied, which solidified in his head that stolas looks down on him and doesn't respect him. meanwhile that couldn't be further from the truth but the damage has already been done, causing blitzø to not want to get attached and just go with the narrative in his head that their arrangement is just about sex, leaning into it and accepting that as their relationship. so you can imagine his shock when all of a sudden stolas dumps a bunch of emotions on to him, saying that he loves him. and when blitzø gets overwhelmed or upset his typical response is anger so that's why he blew up on him on full moon. however after he got kicked out of his place, after he saw him cry, he truly realized that he was infact serious and that someone truly loves him and I think I that point he actually started to consider that he might like him (I think he's liked him since the beginning because there's been LOTS of signs) but at this point he's actually starting to realize it but it's unfortunately because now it's over. he missed his chance. and I think he genuinely feels bad for making him cry so he tried to apologize earlier but again he reacted like he did because blitzø did not feel like confronting himself he deflected with his typical coping mechanism; anger. causing himself to dig himself in an even deeper hole. he feels bad he just can't apologize or express his emotions no matter how hard he tries. meanwhile stolas is convinced blitzø is just an asshole so he's officially done with him and his bullshit, hence why he joined the party. but of course blitzø had to show up and ruin that for him (in his perspective) that's why he was mad and didn't accept blitzø's real attempt at an apology. as well as him being extremely drunk. and because of him being drunk and done with blitzø he accepted the dance from the "better than blitzø guy" I also think he did because not only was that the first guy after blitzø to want him, he also genuinely seemed interested In stolas which he did not feel with blitzø because blitzø still won't stop making it about sex. so stolas sees someone at a party, sad and in need of a distraction, drunk, who seems like a kind guy who was actually interested in him. he obviously accepted it. so it makes me mad the people who hate on stolas or the btb guy because, not only was it consensual, stolas leaned in to it and reciprocated when they made out. and at that moment blitzø new he lost his shot and you can tell how jealous he was, I think then you can tell how much he actually cares about and wants stolas because all of his exes are there and like half of them have partners now and he don't give a fuck but when it's stolas then he gets furious. so furious he couldn't bare to see him with the guy and left. in conclusion, stolas should be happy and I think this period of time where he's broken up is a good opportunity to experiment and learn about relationships and how to communicate properly and truly express boundaries so he knows how to do it right with blitzø. this is his opportunity to learn how to properly love. and for blitzø this is his time to learn how to communicate as well, he needs to learn to have an honest conversation and take accountability without making it about sex or getting defensive because he hates talking about his feelings. he needs this time to find out his feelings and get his shit together so he can give a full apology to stolas so they can both set their boundaries and try to make their relationship work again, but this time not as a transaction, but as a couple. and then we can get an arc of them learning to be in a relationship with each other, maybe stumble around a few times but eventually get to a healthy relationship where they can express themselves and their boundaries with each other. and eventually get to a point where their a happy and healthy relationship like m&m and fizzmodeos.

Professional yapper 💀 but yeah lemme know what y'all think personally and if I should post actually fan fiction on here cus I do actually write it just on notes app because I'm ashamed 😭 but I'd be willing to post if u want :]