I miss you like a little girl
I miss you like a little girl who can't find her plushy right before bed
That same desperation with which she searches for her plushy, destroying everything in her path.
But unlike that little girl, I can't find you
and I'm not going to find you, not laying around and even less on the floor of the room
And maybe the little girl can't find it either
And so, they will try to replace her plushy, with others to fill their place
but the girl does not want another, and neither do I.
And the girl will grow, as much as I will
But nothing and no one can ever fill the void left by her first plushy, just as I will never be able to fill the void you left in me
Maybe the pain went through over the years, maybe I'll just learn to hide it, but whatever happens, it will always be there, in a closed corner with a padlock in my heart.
I miss you, I miss you like a little girl, and just as she does everything possible to find her special plushy, and keeps looking for it even knowing that it is gone, I do the same, hoping that one day I will be able to see you and therefore, give you at least one last goodbye.
