The next morning I woke up late, but I was feeling a lot better. I showered, put on comfortable clean clothes and washed my face. I had to make the best out of my life somehow.
Once I had drunk every morning iced coffee, I decided on looking at my ruined artwork in clear daylight. I hoped it wouldn't be as bad as I thought it was and that it would be fixable. I slowly walked over to the room where my painting was left behind.
I slowly opened the door and took a deep breath before looking at my painting.
Sadly, it was as bad as I thought it was last night. I felt heavily disappointed. I realized that this was going to be a long day.
After a few minutes of contemplating, I decided to call off the art exposition. It was too much of a hassle to make a new peace in such a short time, and honestly I didn't feel like painting after messing up so badly.
"What now?" I wondered. I knew it wouldn't help to sulk about that stupid artwork. I had to find a way to get through the day and be a bit productive. So I decided on cleaning my apartment. That had to happen anyway.
I looked around my room, I realized it was pretty silent. I liked my apartment a lot, I found comfort in being in my room, but somehow it felt different. Rather... lonely. It was an odd feeling to me. I had this lonely feeling a few times before, but I never felt like this when I was in my room with cozy lights and blankets.
I just stood there.
Alone.
In my own apartment, with no one to talk to except the wall.
I felt the feeling wash over me. I hated this. I didn't want to feel lonely in the place I felt most safe. A small sad smile formed on my face. I wondered why the feeling came over me so suddenly.
Ever since I lost my parents, I have had these moments where I would stop and think. Feel everything and nothing at all. I guess that was one of those moments. I didn't really understand it but.. I figured that I wanted someone to take care of me, to love me. Back then, I felt deep down that I wasn't ever going to find love. Not if I kept acting like I did. I never let anyone get close to me at all.
I tried shrugging it off and started picking up random pieces of clothing from the floor.
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General FictionI wrote this in biology class instead of paying attention, enjoy (This story is about an 18 year old guy who lives in his own apartment, you can say he's a little lonely, after some time something unexpected happens.. what will he do?)