Those words echo in her head….I would give my life for you, Ray! They repeat over and over, all the time wanting to push the pause button. Ray Mond traces the bathtub edge with her fingers looking directly into the candle flame. Twin Flames she thought. Allowing her body to relax into her bubble bath, the big bear claw tub holding enough water to almost come to her chin.
Dipping her chin into the water she blows bubbles with her lips. She raises up in the tub hearing a slight knock at the door. Chatterbox can be heard from the other side. “You okay my queen? Was just checking on you to see if you’d like a glass of wine!?” Ray smiles, she is his queen and she knows it fully now, he spoils her more than he probably should. “Um, sure wine would be good!” She says in response, Chatterbox slowly cracks the door…”Well you gonna stay on the other side silly goose? Just come in!”
Chatterbox opens the door with a glass of wine in hand.”Here you go, my queen.” He says handing her the glass of wine. Ray takes the glass delicately with her wet soapy hands. Sticking her nose in the glass and swirling it. “Merlot?” she guesses looking at Chatterbox curiously. “Yuck Idk. It just said ‘Red’ on the bottle.” Ray Mond laughs at his response and Chatterbox was over the moon to hear her laugh in that manner again.
“Okay Cups, I’ll leave you to it!” Cups reaching from the tub grabs Chatty's gloved hand. “Wait, Chatty!? What did you mean by "you would give your life for me?” Chatterbox turns and kneels beside the tub. Still holding Ray’s hand. “Babe, do we have to go over this again?” Chatterbox says, knowing what the answer would be, the Dr. told him that she would have questions about some of the same things over and over, because her mind is trying to reassure itself that she is wanted and needed. Ray shakes her head slightly, tears beginning to form in her eyes, Yes, I need to know.
“I meant that I would give you my life, and I would give my life for you, if the option were you being hurt or killed or me, I would give my life instead.” Chatterbox still stays beside her. Rubbing her hand with his thumb. “But, But that doesn’t make sense Chatty, because then you would be dead and I would be here without you again. And I don’t want to do that, I don’t want to be without you.”
Chatterbox stands and removes the stopper from the tub sits his queen’s wine glass on the bathroom counter, helping the now sobbing Ray Mond out of the tube he places her in her robe.
She grabs her glass of wine and retreats to the bedroom where she sits in the infamous window seal, Chatty had placed there specifically for her. “You alright Cups?”
Ray sat staring out the window at the night sky which she does often, watching the colors dance within the northern lights, “I’m fine, I just can’t believe you would leave me here without you.”
“I really wish you wouldn’t see it that way. I’m not leaving you here without me, I would be protecting you. Do you not understand?” A tear falls from Ray’s eye onto her robe. “I do understand, but you asked me to be yours forever, and I want to, but that means that you have to be mine. Do you understand? I still have nightmares Chatty. About getting on that plane and leaving you! I still think about how hurt you must have been, and I can’t get over it! I’m scared to hurt you like that. I don’t want to hurt you Chatty!”
“Hmm. Strange how the tables have turned huh? Ray?” Chatterbox walking over sitting down on the side of the bed. “What the fuck does that mean? Are you telling me that I should be hurt for what I did to you?” He pulls her over quickly into his lap, stroking the hair out of her face. “That is the last yucking thing I want. Do you yuckin’ hear me? I want you to not worry about this kind of thing anymore Ray! I want you to know that I love you, and we continue with our life. Like none of this yuckin’ happened. I know that’s going to take time, and I am not asking you to rush that. I just want you to understand without a doubt I never want you to feel pain, or hurt from a broken heart.
“What did you mean by the tables having turned?” Ray questions..”Well, You remember back when you asked me to be your valentine? I told you no right? Because I wasn’t good at that kind of thing; I was afraid to hurt you. You remember?” Ray turns to face Chatty, carefully to make sure she doesn’t fall. “I remember vividly, I believe we’ve talked about this before.”
“You’re right we have, I just wanted to bring it to your attention so I can let you know what I mean. I didn’t want to look at you that way because. I was terrified to hurt you or cause you pain, and now you’re scared of the same thing. Even though it’s already happened. It’s already happened Ray, and we made it through it. That’s the only thing that matters.”
Ray Mond lays her head on his shoulder, into the crook of his neck. “I can hear your heart!”
“Yeah?” Ray places her head on his chest, slipping it underneath his suspender to hold it in place. “So you hear my heart, and what does that mean Ray?” “It means that my heart is still beating.”
“That’s yuckin’ right and I knew your heart was still beating the whole yuckin’ time you were gone, and I knew you were coming back, because my heart continued to beat. I knew you would be back. You left for a good yuckin’ reason Ray!”
“I know I just…”
“Stop it, Stop it right yuckin’ now. You just nothing Ray. You made the right yuckin’ decision. Did it hurt me, Yes! I’m not going to yuckin’ lie to you and tell you it didn’t, but I had to let you go in order for you to be okay! Now, I need you to let it go in order for you to be okay! Is that something you can do? Do you trust me?”
“I do.” Ray continues to listen to his heart beat like she had done so many times before, taking deep breaths to match his. Her anxieties begin to calm. “There you yuckin’ go. Atta girl, Deep breaths. Is that better Ray?!” Closing her eyes, she listens to the thumps of his heart, knowing that she wants this to be her forever. No matter what anyone says, including herself.
“I’ve got to let the past be the past, I have to accept her, or I’m always going to be like this. I’m always going to second guess myself, and second guess us, and that’s no life to live, but I’m going to need you to understand that sometimes I need a little extra reassurance.”
Chatterbox caresses her face, kissing her forehead.
“I will reassure you my entire life…I love you, Cups”
“I love you too!”
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Second Chances and Nightmares
FanfictionChatterbox and Ray Mond thought they'd both found "The one" Their lucky 7 Roll. Until both their worlds shattered after Hiccups had to fight for the dominance for happiness. Chatterbox still has nightmares of this, but since getting her back, ther...
