Just Getting Married《結婚而已》

Chapter 67

67 - Because I have only loved you in my life.

"We are both worried about this, and no one will mention it, so as not to ruin the couple's relationship," Luo Zhongyu seemed to be worried about Jiang Zhe, so he warned her again.

Jiang Zhe's voice was a little deep: "Well, I know the severity."

"I've finished my cigarettes. Let's go back." Luo Zhongyu looked at the cigarette butt in his hand.

When Cheng Li heard this, she hurriedly left before they came over.

But instead of going back to the box, she turned back and went to the bathroom again.

As soon as Cheng Li entered the bathroom, she turned on the faucet.

She originally wanted to wash her face with water to calm herself down, but when she thought about the makeup she had put on tonight, she could only put her hand under the faucet and rinse it repeatedly.

The cold water flowed along her fingers.

She thought this would calm her down, but the dull pain in her heart became clearer.

Cheng Li forced herself to raise her head, looked at herself in the huge mirror, and thought to herself, it's actually nothing, right? Adults have their own emotional experiences, and it's weird if they don't. Rong Qi is a normal person. It is normal for an emotional adult to have a past.

Not only herself, but also her ex-boyfriend.

What does she have to mind? If she really cares, wouldn't she have double standards?

Rong Qi also knew about the existence of Xu Jiheng.

Everyone has rights and their own past, right?

Cheng Li recited these words silently in her heart, forcing herself to accept the existence of this established fact and accept that Rong Qi once had an unlovable being in her heart.

Anyway, as long as he likes her now, that's fine.

Yes or no.

The past is not important.

The important thing is now, the important thing is that now they are connected and care about each other.

But as soon as she suppressed the bitterness in her heart, another thought came to her mind in the next second. How much did she like her that she could not forget her for so many years, and that she felt that as long as the other person was doing well, he would be doing well too.

When she thought of this, Cheng Li felt as if her heart was pinched hard by a big invisible hand. She was so uncomfortable that she almost couldn't breathe. The bitterness mixed with helpless emotions completely overwhelmed her.

She couldn't care about anything because she also had a relationship.

Cheng Li thought to herself, yes, her first love was not Rong Qi, so why should she ask Rong Qi to live without her first love?

You cannot be selfish.

So it was like there was a whack-a-mole game in her mind. As soon as a thought came up here, she suppressed it with all her strength, and another thought came up over there.

The kind of emotion that you know you shouldn't mind, but you can't control yourself from not minding it.

Pulling and pulling repeatedly, torturing her.

In the end, even Cheng Li had to admit that she was just an ordinary person after all.

I can't be so rational and magnanimous.

When she learned that Rong Qi had such a wish for Bai Yueguang in her heart, she couldn't help but think about it.

Especially the sour feeling in her heart, which was strong enough, but also too unfamiliar. She had never experienced this kind of emotion before. It suddenly appeared in her heart. Cheng Li thought in hindsight, is this jealousy?

Cheng Li was very jealous of the stranger whose name she didn't even know because she had been so liked by Rong Qi in the past many years.

Perhaps every move of this girl had been kept in Rong Qi's mind.

Before this, Cheng Li had never thought that someone like Rong Qi would have a secret love.

Although having a crush seems out of place for him.

But the fact is indeed right in front of us.

He once liked someone deeply, but it was a pity that this love did not bear fruit.

Inexplicably, Cheng Li felt a little uncomfortable, because she felt sorry for him. This kind of love that she couldn't get must be hopeless.

Cheng Li thought with a bit of an ostrich mentality. Fortunately, his love didn't work out, otherwise nothing would have happened without her.

This is one hell of a joke.

Cheng Li was amused by her own thoughts, but as she smiled, the corners of her eyes became moist unknowingly.

After a long time, Cheng Li finally forced herself to calm down.

Finally, she returned to the box.

Seeing that she was finally back, Rong Qi breathed a sigh of relief. After Cheng Li sat down, he turned over and asked in a low voice, "Are you feeling unwell?"

Cheng Li tilted her head and looked at the concern in his eyes.

The sourness that had just been suppressed emerged again. Did he also look at the girl with such gentle eyes?

Cheng Li closed her eyes suddenly.

When she opened her eyes again, she whispered: "It's nothing, I just feel a little uncomfortable in my stomach."

Rong Qi saw her closing her eyes suddenly just now and thought she was dizzy. He immediately said, "Then let's go back first." Go home."

Seeing him say this without hesitation, Cheng Li felt both happy and uncomfortable.

He always puts her feelings first.

So facing such a person, why should she criticize him harshly for past events.

Cheng Li felt that she was too petty.

She shook her head gently and held his hand: "No, it's rare for your classmates to get together. I'm fine."

Rong Qi also knew that it wouldn't be a good idea for them to leave early, so he asked again: "Are you really fine?"

"It's fine ." It's okay," Cheng Li made an excuse and whispered in his ear: "I'm the one."

Rong Qi quickly understood and nodded lightly.

After that, Cheng Li listened quietly to their chat again. Occasionally when the conversation got excited, everyone burst into laughter. The atmosphere was so good that Cheng Li couldn't help but immerse herself in it, forgetting the sour and uncomfortable feeling.

This meal lasted for two or three hours, and everyone was chatting afterward.

By the time it was over, everyone seemed a little unfinished.

Jiang Zhe simply said hello that it would be a rare opportunity to continue another stall, so everyone responded one after another.

Rong Qi shook his head and said helplessly: "I have to go to Nanjing tomorrow. I really can't accompany you tonight."

Everyone thought he was a spoiler, so Rong Qi smiled and said, "In this way, everyone can drink and play tonight. My treat."

"Mr. Rong is so generous."

"As expected of us, Mr. Rong."

Luo Zhongyu gave a thumbs up: "Sister Rong is awesome."

Rong Qi resisted the urge to roll his eyes at her and scoffed rudely. : "Except you."

So everyone got in the car separately, Cheng Li also got in the car with Rong Qi, and the driver came to pick them up. As soon as he got in the car, Rong Qi said in a gentle voice, "Lean on me and rest for a while. I'll call you when you get home."

Cheng Li nodded and leaned on his shoulder.

But as soon as she closed her eyes, the words she heard would automatically ring in her mind. Every word was like a huge stone, weighing heavily on her chest, making even breathing painful.

She didn't fall asleep at all during this whole journey, and she woke up as soon as the car stopped.

Seeing her open her eyes, Rong Qi asked, "Are you feeling uncomfortable again?"

"No," Cheng Li shook her head.

Seeing this, he got out of the car first, walked to the other side, opened the door, handed his hand to her, and asked her to use his hand to get out of the car. Cheng Li sighed inwardly and reached out to hold his hand.

The two just held hands and returned home.

As soon as she got home and changed her shoes, Cheng Li took only two steps forward when she was hugged by Rong Qi.

But when she just fell into his warm embrace, the sour feeling in her heart became more and more pervasive. She knew it was not his fault but her own emotional problem, but at the moment she wanted to hold him and wanted to Push away his conflicting feelings.

"What happened to you tonight?" Rong Qi asked in a low voice.

He paid so much attention to her, how could he not notice that something was wrong with her mood.

Obviously, Cheng Li also knew.

After all, I am not an actor, so I cannot control my emotions freely.

Should she ask?

Ask directly?

What if Rong Qi doesn't admit it, will she be disappointed in her heart and feel that he is lying to her.

But does he admit it?

When Cheng Li thought about this possibility, her heart felt even more uncomfortable, as if something was gnawing at her chest crazily, and her heart felt like there was a hole in it.

She hoped that he would not admit it, but was also afraid that he would not admit it.

So simply, don't ask anything.

Cheng Li hummed in a low voice: "Why did you drop out of the juvenile class in the first place? I was just thinking about how great it would be if you didn't drop out."

Rong Qi was slightly startled, and suddenly smiled: "So it's because of this that you "Uncomfortable?"

He cared so much about Cheng Li, and he noticed that she was in a slightly wrong mood.

But at the dinner table, everyone talked about daily trivial matters or interesting stories from school in the past, and no one tried to persuade her to drink. He was a little confused as to what was wrong with Cheng Li.

I originally thought she was really feeling unwell, but I didn't expect that it was actually for this reason.

Rong Qi reached out and pinched her cheek, and said softly: "If I didn't drop out of the juvenile class, how would I have gone to No. 1 Middle School and met you."

Cheng Li immediately looked at him, her eyes turning red: "But When we were in high school, we were just ordinary classmates. "

Cheng Li thought it was nothing before.

But now, suddenly she felt so regretful. They had known each other so early, but she had wasted so many years.

If at that time, the person he liked was her.

How great would that be?

Rong Qi looked at her red eyes. He was stunned for a moment, then suppressed the turbulence in his heart and said softly: "You don't want to be a common classmate with me?"

Cheng Li's answer in the bar that time made Rong Qi understand. She has always been a carefree person.

Cheng Li said without hesitation: "Yes, I don't want to be an ordinary classmate with you."

"We are no longer ordinary classmates," Rong Qi raised his hand and rubbed the corners of her eyes.

Cheng Li hugged him tightly again, yes, now, what they have is now.

What happened in the past does not matter.

Cheng Li has always believed in her self-regulation ability. She thought she could forget this incident quickly, but she didn't expect that in the next few days, as long as she had a little free time, she would think of it.

So she kept herself busy as much as possible.

As a result, she only worked for two days and it was the weekend. There was nothing that required overtime this week, and even if she wanted to work overtime, other colleagues also needed to rest.

Cheng Li doesn't want to be that kind of inhumane boss.

On Saturday afternoon, she had nothing to do and didn't want to play with her mobile phone, so she went into Rong Qi's study to find a book to read.

Rong Qi was in the living room at the time. After Cheng Li told him, he asked her to go in and get whatever she wanted.

So Cheng Li entered the study room and looked around carefully on the bookshelf.

Rong Qi's bookshelf is not a decoration. Many of the books on it have obvious creases and vary in condition. He has obviously read them before and probably put them in after he moved.

Cheng Li randomly picked up a book. The side of the book was exquisitely bound. When she got it, she found that it was a relatively unpopular novel. She didn't expect that Rong Qi would also read this. This should be her favorite novel.

However, the writing style is too delicate and gentle, which is not a work that boys usually like.

She chuckled softly and was about to open it when something suddenly fell out of the book.

It fell gently to the floor.

Cheng Li lowered her head and looked at the thing that fell. It seemed to be a photo. She bent down and picked up the photo. At a casual glance, it was a photo of the graduation season, because the photo was full of people wearing bachelor's uniforms.

But Cheng Li soon realized something was wrong. It looked like a group of people, but the camera focused on the back of a girl.

When she wanted to take a closer look, Cheng Li realized something in the flash of lightning.

She slammed the photo into the book, not daring to look at it again.

This should be the photo of Rong Qi's first love.

Although it was just a back view, it was the first time that Cheng Li understood the existence of this person concretely. She held the book in her hand tightly, wanting to open it and take another look.

But I'm afraid to look at it again.

She had made up her mind not to think about it again.

Everyone has their own past, her past is Xu Jiheng, Rong Qi's past is his first love.

She clearly knew that Rong Qi loved her now.

Cheng Li put the book in his hand back on the bookshelf without hesitation.

But when she put it back, she smiled bitterly in her heart. He still keeps the photo of the other person.

"Didn't find the book?" Rong Qi was sitting in the living room. When he saw Cheng Li coming out empty-handed, he raised his head and asked.

Cheng Li shook her head: "I suddenly felt a little sleepy and wanted to sleep for a while."

At this time, she didn't know how she fell asleep. Her mind became a mess, but in the end she miraculously fell asleep again. fell asleep and passed by.

She woke up to her cell phone.

The mobile phone on the bedside table kept vibrating.

Cheng Li stretched out her hand to answer the call and heard Meng Yuange's feeble voice: "Ci, let's drink, are you coming?"

"Come." Cheng Li's equally listless voice came from the dark room.

Cheng Li changed her clothes and came out. Rong Qi, who had been busy in the kitchen, looked at her: "I was just about to call you. I have already prepared dinner."

Cheng Li was stunned for a moment, with mixed feelings in her heart.

But now, she urgently needed a gap to release her emotions. She said apologetically: "Yuan Ge asked me to go out for a hangout. I haven't seen her for a long time."

"It's okay, just hang out with her. " When it's almost over, tell me and I'll pick you up," Rong Qi reached out and touched her hair in a good-natured manner.

Cheng Li knew that she was quite boring.

But even though she had been mentally building up for so many days, when she saw the photo of the back this afternoon, she was still inevitably shocked.

Hearing it with your own ears is completely different from seeing it with your own eyes.

No matter how much I heard it before, it was just a vague shadow.

That photo broke her ostrich mentality and told her that such a girl really existed in this world, and she had touched Rong Qi's heart all the time.

Cheng Li left home almost as if she was running away.

The two made an appointment to have a meal.

As a result, when they met, they were all in low spirits.

At first, Cheng Li thought Meng Yuange was because of work, but Meng Yuange ordered a bottle of wine, and after a few glasses, he started sighing.

Cheng Li also had something in her heart, but she was helpless and said directly: "Tell me, what's going on."

Meng Yuange looked at her and asked seriously: "Just, if a boy follows you We were ambiguous, but his first love suddenly appeared. Should you give up now, or continue?"

Cheng Li: "..."

These words were like an invisible arrow, piercing directly into Cheng Li's heart.

"It's impossible to give up," Cheng Li said to herself.

Of course she will not give up on Rong Qi because of someone who has passed. She will never let go.

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​Would you be happier if you didn't ask?"

"That's not the case," Meng Yuange rubbed his hair irritably.

Cheng Li said: "Have you met someone you like recently?"

Obviously, this kind of hypothetical question is usually an ongoing problem.

Meng Yuange was too lazy to pretend now, and simply complained: "Yeah, I finally met a crush, but when I was about to take the initiative, his first love suddenly appeared."

Meng Yuange: "You said Why are some people's first loves so unforgettable? I can't even remember whether my first love was flat or round." Cheng Li took a sip of wine and whispered, "Maybe it's because I loved it forever .

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Okay, I am the only one who likes it superficially." Meng Yuange groaned and rubbed his hair hard: "I used to think that things like White Moonlight were quite ethereal. That kind of emotion is infinitely magnified, at most it is a little sustenance of youth."

Meng Yuange smiled bitterly: "But when I saw the living Bai Yueguang, I realized that there was no sustenance at all, it was a nuclear bomb."

Cheng Li raised his eyes . : "Have you seen Bai Yueguang alive?"

Meng Yuange didn't say anything, just sighed.

Cheng Li suddenly said with joy, "That's okay. I only saw the photo, and it was a back view."

"Oh, that's right," Meng Yuange nodded.

But after clicking, she looked at Cheng Li suddenly, her eyes widened: "Whose white moonlight photo did you see?"

Cheng Li looked at her and responded with silence.

"Isn't it?" Meng Yuange was shocked. She whispered, "Are we stabbing Bai Yueguang's nest? How come both of these people have unforgettable first loves."

Cheng Li: "I didn't."

Her first love was Xu Jiheng. Thanks to this man, he got out of her life in the worst possible way.

Cheng Li didn't even remember him at all.

Meng Yuange didn't dare to speak loudly. She was in an ambiguous period at best. Cheng Li was already married, and she suddenly discovered that her husband had a first love that he could never forget.

What can we do? We won't leave, right?

So she said softly: "Hey, actually Bai Yueguang is nothing, as long as he doesn't show up for the rest of his life, it doesn't matter."

Cheng Li looked up at Meng Yuange.

Only then did Meng Yuange realize what he was talking about.

She quickly made up for it and said: "Anyway, it's all in the past. Let's be generous and don't worry about it with people who have passed. This man now only belongs to you, as long as he only has you in his heart now."

Cheng Li said softly, "Yes, I know. And it's not like I have no relationship history, and my first love wasn't him, so I have nothing to worry about."

"That's right," Meng Yuange sighed.

Then, she asked in a low voice: "How did you know that Rong Qi had his first love, Bai Yueguang? Could it be that you were mistaken?"

Cheng Li shook his head, then said what Luo Zhongyu said, and then talked about her today That photo I saw at home.

After hearing this, Meng Yuange couldn't help but feel sorry for Cheng Li. She asked, "Then what are you thinking in your heart now?"

Thoughts?

Cheng Li was silent for a long time, and then whispered: "Even though I know he has Bai Yueguang in his heart, I still like him."

When Rong Qi called, Cheng Li answered the phone and couldn't speak clearly.

Fortunately, she could tell her where to eat, and Rong Qi came to pick her up immediately.

Meng Yuange was also a little drunk, so Rong Qi called and asked Jiang Zhe to come over and help. After all, they had eaten together before. When Jiang Zhe heard that Meng Yuange was drunk, he came immediately without saying anything.

"I'll leave her to you," Rong Qi looked at Meng Yuan's fans and told Jiang Zhe to send her home safely.

Only then did he coax Cheng Li into the car.

Unexpectedly, he had just sat down in the driver's seat and came over to fasten Cheng Li's seat belt when she suddenly reached out, pinched his chin, and said very domineeringly: "Hurry."

"Hurry up and go home?" See you. She only said one word, and Rong Qi kindly completed it for her.

Cheng Li raised her face slightly and said one word at a time: "Hurry up and coax me."

Rong Qi thought she was drunk and didn't want to get involved with a drunkard, so he asked, "How do you want me to coax you?"

As soon as he finished speaking, Cheng Li stretched her neck slightly and took his lips in her mouth. They were so soft.

She sighed in comfort. He seemed so distant, cold and cold, but every time she kissed him, Cheng Li felt that his lips were incredibly soft, but they were much softer than the words he said.

"Rong Qi," she said after she had kissed him enough and let go of him, she looked seriously into his eyes and said, "The one I love most in this world is Rong Qi."

This sudden confession left the man in front of her speechless. Laughing.

Finally, he asked: "Do you just like it?"

Ever since he heard her say that word before, he was no longer satisfied. He wanted to hear it every time, and he didn't take advantage of the drunk person, after all, it was her The one who brought it up first took the initiative.

Cheng Li's eyes were misty and watery, with a confused and well-behaved look. She nodded fiercely: "My favorite is Rong Qi."

Who is coaxing whom?

Rong Qi likes her coaxing way.

But who would have thought that Cheng Li then said aggrievedly: "I love you much more than you love me."

Rong Qi raised his eyes slightly and said immediately, "That's impossible."

"Why is it impossible?" Cheng Li was unconvinced.

Rong Qi said softly: "I can let you do everything else, but not this one."

Even Cheng Li himself could not question his love for her.

Cheng Li pouted, feeling very unconvinced, and whispered: "No matter what happens to you, I will still like you."

But her voice was too soft, her accent was draggy, and she was vague, so Rong Qi didn't listen at all . clear.

Until Rong Qi held her in his arms, lowered his eyelids slightly, and stroked her back with his palms. After a long time, he whispered: "Because I have only loved you in my life."

The author. There is something to say:

Centimeter is aggrieved: It doesn't matter if you have Bai Yueguang, I like you too.

The next second: It turns out that Bai Yueguang is myself

, so who is the clown... (Meng Yuange was furious)