𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 | hoonki

chapter five: the truth beyond interest

jay couldn't share his first class lesson with sunghoon this morning, but he did share this one with heeseung. he sat at his usual spot, he wasn't so sure what would come next so he only took out his pencil and the book everyone has since the beginning of their school year. an uneasy chill tickled his skin, he believes he's only nervous, but it's only because this boy with grey hair sat across his spot, he stared at him and smiled. he really wanted to smile back, but he's anxious and thinking over and over again about what they did yesterday night.

they watched a movie on heeseung's laptop, sitting beside each other on his bed because it's comfortable and more cozy. His heart threatened to escape for the rest of the evening, the other boy didn't notice or take a hint, so they watched the whole movie in silence. heeseung's arm almost joining jay's shoulders but he never did, he cleared his throat and moved around, he began to talk about sports at school, like a usual or just simple subject.

it's only because jay wished for something else, a different conversation.

the only subject stuck to his lips was sports or weird anecdotes about last year's parties thrown by some popular students.

He found heeseung boring, for the first time in so many years, he only thought of how much he wished to leave because of him being so boring, he expected more, expecting more from a crush shouldn't be common among anyone, but a lot of people do have expectations, Jay did and now he can barely stand heeseung's gaze or voice, some kind of annoyance against him.

plus he didn't seem like he was interested in Jay, not like he is attracted by him.

"rugby... rugby is annoying" he muttered, he knew heeseung's gaze still lingers on him from a quick glance.

why would he smile so much, why would his eyes not budge from him, he's completely indifferent, well at least he's trying to. it's hard to look away from the boy you've liked for such a long amount of time.

he suddenly waved, it was already too late for him to care, the teacher is here and the thoughts of yesterday night won't leave his mind, even if he tries his hardest.

what a promising long and tough day ahead.

"how do you do it" he sighed as he walked beside his friend sunghoon "are you nervous?" he asked and began to walk faster to walk backwards in front of Jay, he almost tripped but they made it to a table right before the worst happens "what, why are you asking?" he looked around, scratching his neck when a few shivers coursed his veins.

"you sound like you've got something unforeseen up your booty hole"

"must be the case..." he rubbed off the itch from the tip of his nose, looking away but then looking back at sunghoon in disbelief "what the heck park sunghoon?" the other boy giggled over his breath, but Jay felt stupid and betrayed "I meant something else" he added, both of his eyebrows are furrowed.

"Anyway, I was initially asking about your past crushes"

"uh, why my past crushes?"

"how can you keep liking someone after finding something weird or boring about them, how can you still like someone after they've said or did something annoying?" Sunghoon stood up and held jay's face between his hands, squishing the rest into a mess which made his friend look a little bit stupid, and now he's even more pissed "if you really do like someone, then their flaws will be unknown to you, love makes people blind you know? if you didn't actually like them then maybe it's not the one"

"I see..."

"is it about heeseung?"

"oh shut up" he also stood up and pushed his hands off his face just to leave in a hurry, and not so long after leaving, he barged into someone, this someone is too familiar to him, and it's a true pain for his mind.

"Oh Jay, I was looking for you, you seemed like you were in a hurry... you still do but I wanted to talk with you, you have time?" he truly wants to say no but his pretty eyes and his luscious lips pulls him in deeper "about five minutes, I have five minutes." he closed his eyes, already regretting his choices.

it's a long time crush after all, how could he say no "let's take a seat, I've been walking around for awhile" he nodded after heeseung sat down, he joined beside him and kept his mouth shut "do you want to go in a real cinema tonight? there's a great movie going around since yesterday and I really wanted to see it, I just thought it would be weird to go there all alone, and you're pretty outgoing, it's nice"

outgoing, only outgoing. Again, why did he expect him to say he likes his company, he expected again and will for a long time, because he does feel those butterflies when sharing a glance, when he also smiles and speak so softlyz he's so loud and joyful with his other friends, but he's considerate and soft with Jay.

"I have homework" he couldn't fall for the temptation, not yet "I can help you then, I'll come over and I'll help you out."

Jay looked down, gulping and feeling the palm of his hands turning red from how moist they are, why does heeseung always make things seem so complicated when they are not.

"okay"

he smiled again, but this time he felt heeseung's hand on his other shoulder.

Sunghoon's pov

I'm gathering my things together, books, pencil case, headphones, I'm excited and moving way too fast for my usual pace, but it's only because I'm more than happy to meet riki after class, the day went by quickly and he say that we could meet up at his favorite restaurant, so I'm doing so, walking to the exit door just to join him as soon as possible.

He was actually there when I arrived, he slightly smiled when he saw me. I couldn't help but smile too, I also didn't stop myself from asking about how his ankle is doing today. He said it wasn't so painful, something like 'it's healing pretty well, you were of great help.' I did feel my cheeks heat up a bit because of his words, but I kept my cool when our eyes met again.

"so, are you hungry" he asked, I bit my lower lip, my feet touched his under the table and he looked down and up, a soft gaze, one that I can't resist its charm, his eyes are truly magnificent and I'm falling more and more for this pretty boy "I'm starving" I chuckled.

"If you eat three portions and a dessert, I'll probably let you sleep in my bed" it's too easy, I believe I can eat more than this, I hope he's ready to be hugged all night.

"okay, deal."

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hi it's been ages 😔