Marquis
I was able to go home three days later and me and Lo weren't speaking . I blamed myself for not getting us off the street in time. She blamed herself for the whole thing and our seemingly perfect relationship was falling apart. We would be in the house all day and not speak walk past each other she even took off her ring. It tore us apart right now Ang has Nasir we go see him everyday and try to pretend to be happy but losing Ziare was the worst. Today is Ziare's Funeral and we were on the way there we went said our goodbye's to my sweet baby boy and went home I took Nasir home with me and we tried to talk about it. I walked up behind Lo and wrapped my arms around her she flinched and pushed me off so I followed her. " Lo I'm just tryna make it how we were before we need to stay close"
"We can't go back Quis we lost an important part of this family . don't forget that"
"Don't forget , we just buried him Lo you think I'd forget him. That was my son too"
"Just don't talk to me"
"Don't talk to you? Lo what the fuck I know shit is hard but talk to me yell at me scream we walk around like nothing happened and I'm trying to be a strong man and all that but I need you we need each other Lo"
By now we were yelling so loud we weren't even hearing each other she started crying and I just hugged her
She pushed me away after a few minutes
"I think we need a break"
"We not taking a break Lo"
" I need a break Quis, every time I look at you I see Ziare every time I look at Nasir it reminds me of him, I just want to die with him I can't take it no more just a little break Quis do this for me. I wont cheat I wont even think of another man ill wear my ring I just need to clear my head"
I just want Lo to be happy so I agreed I want her to know I support her and it is hard looking at Nasir its hard looking in the mirror I just want us to work it out together like adults.
the next two days went smooth and Lo prepared to go to Hondorus for 2 months. No I didn't want to see her go but I had to be supportive. she cried like a baby when she left we agreed on no contact for two months which was more her decision than mine.
The first week was okay I would be so consumed with taking care of Nasir that I would forget but any downtime I had I thought of Ziare and Lauren. so I kept myself busy I got very involved in my business and we even expanded over the U.S. by the third week I was drinking daily but still functioning. by 6 weeks I had asked Ang to take Nasir for a little while my drinking got out of control I would always end up at Ziare's grave drunk he didn't need to see me like that he didn't deserve it. A couple weeks later I passed out drunk at the graveyard I woke up in the hospital.
Lauren
these months in Hondorous have been eye opening I've been missing Quis like crazy. I hate that I left him but it was so hard looking at him reminding me of Ziare I miss my baby Nasir too man I feel like a bad parent . the first week was okay I spent a lot of time praying and meditating . then after that it was a lot of thinking I think I need to go back and take care of my family we need to work it out Quis was right.
My two months were over and I couldn't wait to get back I got off the plane in Michigan and headed home when I pulled up the yard wasn't taken care of and no cars were in the driveway. I unlocked the door and it was worst clothes were everywhere the place looked horrible I called for Quis but he didn't answer. I decided I would clean up before he got back. After cleaning I called Ang that's when I found out what was really going on I rushed to the hospital and told her that I'd get Nasir later. I get to the hospital and find Quis's room he was laying there and it took me back to those months ago when we lost Ziare. Started crying and he opened his eyes and reached his hand out pulling me on his chest. I got on the bed with him and he rubbed his hands through my hair and said "sorry
"Baby what happened to us"
"we lost our child Lo and I don't know if we ever get over it or it ever stop hurting but please don't leave me again I need you"
" I lift my head up and looked at him "you need me?"
"yes Lo I need you. me and Nasir we need you"
"i love you"
"i love you too"
after we talked for a little bit longer I told him I was going to see Nasir and come back to the hospital with him. I left to go get Nasir when I got there I hugged him so tight and he smiled and gurgled. I thanked Ang over and over for taking care of him she jut assured me hat that's what family does. I got his stuff after talking to Ang for a little while and went back to the hospital. before I got to his room the nurse stopped me and said she wanted to speak with me so I went to speak with her.
I sat down in her office and talked to her she started "Ms.Gotti I need to talk to you about your fiancé they want to do a month of Rehabilitation before letting him go. hi body is bouncing back we just want to help we know you both have been through a lot thee last couple of months. I agreed and went to Marquis room. His parents were in there and when I came in I told him what was going on and his parents styed for a while then left. Nasir was getting sleepy so I fed him and laid him down and Marquis woke up from his nap ready to talk.
"let get married already"
"when"
"i want to get myself together so you plan everything while im in rehab and when I get home ill just write the checks ok"
"you sure"
he lifted my chin "yes im sure"
okay baby and we drifted off to sleep
*Quis POV* (one month later)
im coming home from rehab today and I get married in a week im just a lucky nigga business is going well. while I was in Rehab I started writing more like when I was in foster care and I want to start ghost writing and spreading my poetry.
I walked through the front door of our house and Lauren jumped on me almost knocking me down she looked back at Nasir and said"daddy's home" he started clapping and I went and picked him up and played with him.
Lo started in with everything about the wedding colors were all white and I was cool with that she had everything planned out to a tee Ziare was even incorporated in the wedding. so we had seven days and we were ready.
(wedding day)
"come on man" my bestman Slim shouted "we cant be late" I had overslept from the turnup the night before but we were on the way to the beach and I was excited. I got there and tried to go sneak a peak at Lauren before the wedding but Ang stopped me in my tracks
"where you think you going" she said laughing I gave up no need to argue with Ang but I called Lo to talk her
her: hello
me: hey baby you excited
"im beyond excited I cant wait to be Mrs. Johnson"
"baby lets pray together before we walk down the isle"
we prayed over the phone then hung up there were tents on the beach and I went to stand in place
first the bridesmaids and groomsmen came down the isle then Nasir with a picture of Ziare being pulled along in a wagon with a sign that read the bride is coming then Lauren appeared in her dress she looked so beautiful I aint gone lie a nigga started crying just thinking about everything then the song Mary Me by Jason Derulo came on and she made her way down the aisle. her father gave her away and Ang was the made of honor my parents were on the front row holding Nasir crying their eyes out.
the pastor asked us recite our own vows which we had written our own
I went first " Lauren you have made me so happy this lat year and a half and I knew I wanted to marry from the moment I saw you, but everything takes times . thank you for my beautiful boys & always having my back. I know that you are who God made for me and I love you"
Then her " Quis, Marquis I am so happy you kissed my stubburn ass at that dinner , sorry preacher. But seriously thank you for my babies & loving me through everything. I love everything about you don't ever change I an crazy in love with you"
We placed the rings on each others fingers and then headed to the reception hall..
