- Took place in Uji, Kyoto, Japan. A young girl Kira Tachibana had a very harsh and cruel past. But her friends will try to support her as long as they can, but Kira doesn't know that it's not going to last as long as she thought.
This is the worst Friday I've ever had, Friday is supposed to be our family day. Instead of having fun in the mall with my parents, I'm standing in front of my mom's coffin. It really breaks me that none of my prayers worked, I just wanted her to be in good condition and to be a happy mother. I know that I can't rely on god to make everything work, but.. why? This is my mother for crying out loud. I can't believe I won't get to see her smile anymore, hear her laughs, and share my stories with her. She was my anchor, my source of strength and comfort, and now she's gone.
The air in the funeral home was thick with grief and sorrow. I'm supposed to cry inside the funeral home, instead I cried inside the hospital. I felt the weight of the loss pressing down my chest, breathing slowly and deeply couldn't help the fact that I lost you. I could see the pain and concern on my dad's chest, and I can't even imagine the level of sadness he must be feeling. He lost his wife, the love of his life.
I wish I could turn back time, just one more time, so I could tell her how much I love her, how grateful I am to have her as my mother. I wish I could've said goodbye properly, held her hand and gave her a one last kiss. But time doesn't work that way. It moves forward, relentlessly, and is left behind, forever changed by the loss. Her unconditional love and support was the only one who kept me going. I never realized how much I relied on her, until she was gone.
The day she died hit me like thousands of bricks. My life has changed forever. I did everything to make myself feel better, even seeking comfort for my friends, and I can't even begin to understand why she had to leave us so soon. She had so much more to give, so many more laughs to share, and so much to live for. All I can do now is honor her memory by living my life to the fullest, by cherishing the moments that I have with the people I love.
My mom may be gone, but her spirit remains in my heart forever. And I know that she is looking down on me and smiling. Telling me how much she loves me and cherishes me, but it's still not the same without her and the anger started to grow on to me because of my mother's loss.
You betrayed me God.
I felt very guilty at my thoughts and my anger towards my one and only god. I didn't want to lose my faith, but it was hard not to feel like he had abandoned my family. But maybe it wasn't fair to blame god. Maybe he had a plan that I just couldn't understand. All I knew was that my faith was hanging by a thread, and I wasn't sure how to hold onto it.
And just like that, the funeral was over. The next day's blur together in a haze of grief and sorrow. Every moment without my mom is filled with emptiness and pain. I know that I have to keep going, keep living, but it feels impossible. I try to keep myself busy and distract myself, but nothing works. The only time I feel even a little bit okay is when I'm talking to my friends about my mom, sharing stories and memories.
But even then, the pain is always right there, just under the surface, waiting to burst forth. I know that I'll carry this pain with me for the rest of my life. The hardest part is trying to keep my dad going. I can see the weight of his own grief, the pain crushing him. I try to be there for him, to support him, but I'm just a kid myself. I'm not ready for any of this.
And yet, I have to try. I have to keep going, for my mom and for my dad.
Some days are better than others. I start to feel like I can breathe again, like there's still a little bit of hope in the darkness. But then a song, or a smell, or a memory will hit me, and I'll be back in my sadness. I know that this is a long journey, a journey of healing and grief, and that it won't be easy. But I also know that this is a journey I have to take, a journey of love and remembrance.
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