(Might be my last post???? Also TW cussing and sad topics, gore, photos of said gore, you probably shouldn't read if you're sensitive)
Alright, my autistic ass is back. I'm sorry about my previous bitching, but I've recovered. Once again I just dealt with my problems alone and I'm doing great, I mean I'm suffering from depersonalization and derealization and my episode has lasted for over 12 hours, but I can't feel sad about it anyways so I'm fine.
Unfortunately I'm still living with my father but things have gotten better since I can just leave the house then return at 10pm. I also have done well with self harm habits, I stopped a while back, but the skin picking was a subconscious thing, but I haven't picked at myself badly for like two weeks.
Speaking of self harm, back in February on the 21st at about 21pm (9pm), I was visiting family, and let's just say my intrusive thoughts won and I might've punched a window and lost half my pinky finger vertically. 🥺👉👈 But good news I enjoyed the pain, I was laughing the whole time and the doctors didn't have to give me pain meds. They were looking at it and they said, 'I think that's your bone' (it was) and I said, 'I guess you could say it's bad to the bone *bad to the bone riff*' and he just looked at me like I was crazy and he straight up left lmaoo. I lost about enough blood to make two espresso shots. They said I'd need plastic surgery on it, BUT THEY WERE WRONG HAHA. apparently I have reptilian DNA because it grew back, it's genuinely a miracle. Fair to say that I'm pretty much ambidextrous at this point because my right hands motor skills got just as bad as my left hands.
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I've also been getting into digital art and pretty much all my hyperfixations have come back at once to haunt me, it's lovely, I treat my hyperfixations like pokémon, got to catch them all. My hyperfixations always come back, like William Afton, but this time it was all at once. I've also discovered I'm trans, I'm not entirely sure how to label my sexuality but I don't think I like women and if I do it's definitely a lower level of attraction, I'm a furry, I'm also a therian, my theriotypes are red fox, maned wolf, and black cat (basic ik, but it's not a choice).
Now I think I've yapped on enough, if any of you lovlies are still with me feel free to yap about what's been going on with you and if you need help with anything or just need to vent feel free to, I'll gladly suggest solutions!
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Have fun, stay safe, have a great summer, don't forget to eat food and drink water, and love y'all lovelies bye.
