Lead us not in temptation

Stay away

I woke up on a very early Sunday morning to my mom calling me " Rye come down stairs for breakfast " I put on shorts being just in a sports bra and my underwear if you could tell I'm the black Sheep of the family with my 100% Christian mom and dad and the clones " Rylee  not acceptable " my mom gasped " could of came down in my underwear would that have been better mother " I said rolling my eyes I sit down in my normal seat and finish off the left over of my siblings not wanting a full meal I walk up stairs and put on a black Skater skirt and a gray graphic tee and my all black high top converse I go to church like usual as my dad is the minister I sit down in the front row to make sure I'm paying attention as my mom says he finishes the Sermon which means we all have to get up and meet each other / visit I walk up to all the older people being my polite self I finish saying hi to everyone I go take my seat which I don't remember the rest something about Noah or john I Don't know we go home where my mom addresses that we have new neighbors which means they come over for dinner so I go up stairs and put on a tight v neck shirt light distressed jeans and my white converse I wipe the foundation off my inner arm exposing old and new cuts and scars I sit in my room curling my hair to beachy curls " Rylee  they should be here any minute now " I hear my dad say put on a fake smile and walk down stairs right when I hit the last step the door bell rang " Hi Ashley and Cody come in dinners almost ready " my mom being her super friendly self I see a women who seemed very stressed in a Maroon colored buttoned cardigan and kaki pants next a very tall boy I would say about my age with a black lip ring and some tattoos I like , my mom grabbed some sort of casserole and sat it in the middle of the table I waited until everyone had second before I had a small amount that was left ,I finished " can I be excused " I said looking at my mom " yes dear um why don't you and Cody go to your room while we talk " my mom said. " Thanks for the dinner mom it was good " I said smiling " lets go to my room Cody " I said I led us to my room I say on the bed Cody followed " so Cody when did you move here " I asked " um like a week ago " his deep voice said " cool so like what do you wanna do " I said kicking my shoes off " uh 20 questions ?" He said biting his lip " sure I'll go first favorite band or singer " I said swinging my legs on to the bed " got to be one direction by far " he said laughing " for real ? ok I didn't know I was hanging out with my little sister im joking " I said " your turn " I said. " Favorite thing to do " he said " oh my god collecting like succulents like cactus and stuff I have a window ceil full , all named too " I said getting excited " ok worse memory ever " I said " I'll go first if your scared ok so I was in like sixth grade and what I thought was my bestfriend hung out with this bitch and right in front of me they would make fun of me and laugh at things I like so I went home After like a couple of months of dealing with this stuff and said I had a headache to get the Advil that my mom hid I dumped like 12 out and took them one buy one until there like five left and I freaked out cause how stupid of me I didn't want to die i didn't tell anyone so like I was sick for awhile " ok it's out what is he going to say " my worst memory was fearing myself cause I'm not really confident about myself and that's it " he said looking down " as my older brother would say I guess we are both very misunderstood teenagers rebelling against society's standards " I said it was really quiet and awkward so I started to pick at one of my scabs on my leg from falling off a skate board I look up to see him fidgeting with a ring " no way you have a purity ring " I said look at a gun metal color band on his finger " Cody , Rylee  come down stairs " we both walk down stairs " bye Ashley bye Cody my mom says hugging both and leading them to the door my dad waited for a while before he started to rant " Rylee  I don't want you hanging out with that boy he's not the right type " he says in a stern voice " the right type for me or you dad so what he has a lip ring And like three tattoos if he was that bad why would he have a purity ring " I said raising my voice " Rye don't talk to you father like that " my mom said " right don't talk to my step dad like that this misshapen family is a perfect Christian family right mom your divorced and had me and Dakota out of wedlock but the holy sprit forgives all sins right so mom you should be fine hell won't bother with you" I said stomping up to my room and laying in my bed drifting to bed