No Longer Spring - Writings of tomorrow

XIII

It was as if the moon was talking to me that day.
I was looking at the silent sky from above as if it was going to give me answers to questions I didn't even know I had. My mind was so quiet and, after so much noise, it felt weird to not have one single thought.
I honestly hoped that it was going to last forever.
It felt quite lonely. There were so many people around me, yet I was always all alone. The territory I was in was packed with enemies and, for the better or for worse, I didn't even get to have you by my side. After spending everyday with someone for even a month, breaking away from them feels as if cutting away a piece of your flesh.
Well, we had spent together much more than that.
We had always worked like one but, then and there, I couldn't even see your face in front of me. I couldn't even dare think of touching you, of kissing you.
I could only hope that you were going to be waiting for me even if a longer period of time was to pass. I couldn't afford to lose any time. We had one life and, even though a few years can feel like nothing in the face of a century, the days missed were never going to be taken back. They were never going to be lived again.
Even when it felt like my plan was never going to work- I knew it. I knew that I had hope. That I had to win and put an actual end to my family's suffering. I had to, at least in death, grant my parents this very last gift.

A laugh had escaped my lips at the irony of it all.

Even though there were so many stars out there, none of them promised to grant a wish. Not a single one of them promised to have any connection with the human realm. Why did it feel like they were so close to me?
Gods. Maybe because I thought I had it all- I had you, I had my sword. Our memories and everything that we've build together. I was happy with who I came to be and buried everything else deep inside my mind. I used to feel like an immortal almost but, in that moment, I felt like nothing but whatever a human was meant to be. There was so much more to take care of, I just couldn't die.
I had to bring peace to my ancestors, I had an entire sect to destroy and gain the dignity that we, as a family, have lost. I wanted to achieve even greater things while being by your side.
I didn't know what was going to happen- I didn't even know why we were brought into that world to begin with.
I was simply going to prove that I had the fate in my very hands and, in order to do that, I had to marry Li Wang. I had to play my role.

As I had gotten lost in thought, a tug on my sleeve brought me back to reality.
A shit took place when, instead of memories and images, I saw a face.
A little girl, no older than six, looked up at me with eyes full curiosity. I had just realized that she got up on the same roof I was sat on.

"Who are you, really?"

I found the question to be quite amusing, coming from such a young person.

"Who do you think I am?"

She smiled at me, "Do you wanna know who I am?"

I raised a brow. Her small hands were holding a wooden sword with the sigil of the HuoLong sect. She must have been someone's daughter.

"Very well, tell me."

"I'll be the best martial arts fighter out there," she answered, pointing towards the very same sky I had been staring at with melancholy. She was looking at it with a hopeful gaze- while I was getting lost in between the stars, she was lighting them with faith.

"Are you willing to adventure into the world by yourself?"

She paused, seriously taking her reply into consideration, "No," she tilted her head, "I'll find someone to wonder with. What if I end up alone in the dark?"

I laughed.

"What about you, older sister? Will you find someone?"

"I already did," I said, not thinking much. It was natural to think about you.