Adore You

prologue

POV : Jacari

~I swear I won't run from you
I know how to make mistakes
Wasn't grown enough to fake them
Everybody makes mistakes
Do we live and learn to brave them
How i wish i was good enough for our own heart
Don't ever think you weren't good enough for our own heart
I guess i'll wait another lifetime~

*trigger warning*

15 years ago...

The sounds of breaking glass and shouting awakens me out of my sleep.
With that, the yelling also intesified , getting louder and louder.
It was the sound of my mother and father arguing once again.

"Carlton, please-" my mother's words were cut off by a loud thump.

"Shut up bitch. What the fuck did i tell you, Remina?"

"Please.. I'm sorry" She weakly let out.

"Maybe if you would only be good enough like i said, this shit wouldn't be happening."

I heard my three year old baby sister, Jaicee, start crying in her bed across the room. I walked over and picked her up.

" Cari I'm scared"  Jaicee said in between tears

" I know. Its okay though, whatever happens, we will always have each other, remember that. I promise."

I took her to my bed and she slowly started to fall asleep, tuning out the yelling.
A few minutes later, there was nothing but silence. I quietly got out the bed trying my best not to wake up Jaicee.

As I slowly walk down the stairs, I am in distraught of what I see.

Everything is broken. Windows were broken, pictures on the wall were now on the floor, ruined, and blood everywhere.

The trail of blood led too the kitchen and I see our mom, unconscious, on the floor.

"Ma!" I screamed in terror as I ran over too her.

There was no response.

As I am running to get the phone to call 911, my dad, rushing out, with my baby sister in his arms. Already too far to run after him.

I fell to the floor, and tears started rushing down.

At the young age of seven, my life is crashing down, right infront of me.

I slowly got up and and walked back over to my mom and layed on her lifeless body at this point and stayed there until I heard a voice.

It was my aunt.

She looked like she seen a ghost.

" Cari... baby, go wait in my car." She said

" No! I can't leave her here" I said as the tears starting taking over me again.

Next thing I know I'm getting dragged away, seeing the last of that house, the last of my lifeless, beaten up mother, and the forever guilt of not fulfilling my promise I made to my baby sister.

I got in the car, seeing it was still pitch black outside.
My aunt was dealing with everthing and seemed to be dealing with it forever.

It started pouring down raining outside the car as well.
Slowly I felt my eyes getting heavy after crying so much, so I laid on the backseat and fell into my dreamland.

~ A few hours later~

As I wake up, I see the sun shining bright in my face.

Still in the car, my aunt is in the front driving, but soon comes to stop.
I quickly close my eyes and feel a tap on my shoulder.

" Cari, baby, wake up and come on inside"

I tried to speak

I tried to say " No! I want my mom, and my sister"

But I couldnt.

Mute.

That is what I was.

My body was frozen. I couldn't move.

She came to my side of the car, and picked me up.
She carried me to a room and placed me on the bed.

" We will get you more clothes and much more Cari. I have more stuff to deal with quickly with this situation, but if you need absolutely anything, let me know." She reassured

I said nothing, laying on my side facing the wall.

She waited for a response for a second, but soon left realizing nothing was going to be said.

I cried once more, tucking myself into a tight ball.
The words "If only you were good enough" replayed in my head as it was back to sleep I go.