Slow Daybreaks

A/N- Hi everybody! This is my first short story on Wattpad. Very heavily based around the song I will link below. I'd recommend listening to it while reading. This story is very cringe and probably trash :,) but I love it and hope you do too. Happy reading! <3.

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Ilya, come on. Don't do this to me! DON'T JUST WALK AWA- "my anger was swiftly cut off by the door to my garage slamming right in my face. I felt my blood boil as I slowly stood up to approach the stormy weather outside. I took a deep breath as I turned the door handle.

I was immediately hit with pounding rain as I stepped outside. I feverishly looked around for any sign of where Ilya may have gone. But this proved quite difficult considering I could barely see the cars lining the quickly flooding streets through the storm. 

I trudged all the way out to the middle of my cul-de-sac, not caring that my brand-new converse were getting completely soaked. I looked all the way down the misty street. The air was filled with the most intense humidity I had ever felt as the rain rapidly cooled off the once arid asphalt. Squinting, I could just barely make out a figure standing right in the middle of the road. I could spot by the silhouette that it was Ilya almost instantly. Even in the the opaque mist.

I ran up to Ilya as fast as I could. But before I got within 10 feet of him, he turned around, and I was nearly taken aback by the face he held. 

Even in the rain, I could tell that he had copious amounts of tears streaming down his face. His body coiled in on itself as he tried to keep himself from collapsing. His deep brown eyes looked as if his heart had been broken a million times over.

"Don't come any closer," he managed to choke out behind his hyperventilating. He took a few steps back, away from me. I felt a pain in my chest so incredulous seeing my best friend in such a state and not allowing me to comfort him. 

"Ilya... please. I don't understand..." I attempted to begin. But my voice almost seemed to make his state worsen. His crying began to turn from silent to shouting at nothing. No words forming. "No. No you don't understand, do you Andrei?" He squared his shoulders and laughed as he looked up to the darkened sky. "And how could you? It's not like you'd ever try to, anyway." He turned back to me. His face turned from pure despair to anger. He looked at me with such hatred it felt as if he had ripped my soul in two. 

Through my tumultuous emotions, I managed to find my words. "What the hell are you talking about? I did nothing wrong and now you're talking to me like I'm the worst person in the world." I could hear the desperation slowly rising in my own voice, but I continued on. "It's not my fault you can't seem to handle the fact that I have priorities. This could be my chance at finally getting a girlfriend. A future. And you're acting like this? You're being such a selfish little brat." I spat the last words with such a venom that all of Ilya's anger evaporated. His anguished expression made me instantly regret everything I had said.

My point proven," Ilya stated blankly. But before I could retort, he continued. "You want to know why I'm so torn over the fact that you like April? Why I'm so torn over you finally getting everything you've ever wanted?" He took a step towards me. "I'm so distraught over this because I love you." He paused for a moment at my expression. But only a moment. "You mean so much to me and now, I'll never get a chance to show you that." He began to sob once more and the only thing I could bring myself to do was stare. So I stared, wide eyed at him, for a moment. I hadn't realized that he was only a few steps away from me now. 

"Ilya... I- "I attempted to begin, finally finding the courage to face the one thing that I could only ever run from. But, before I could begin, he spoke again. "No. Don't even. It's fucking pointless, anyway. You're going to try and comfort me and say we can still be best buds and all that stupid shit but it's worthless. You're still going to date April and I'll be forgotten about. "His breath hitched. "I'll be left to rot with love and I'd rather do that alone than be abandoned by you- "I could tell he was slowly starting to lose himself. So, without thinking, I strode towards him, nearly closing the gap between us. Before he could question it, I cupped his face in my hands and kissed him deeply. I pulled away just as fast as I had approached and watched him closely. Any expression he may have had was completely gone. Replaced with nothing but pure shock. At first, I thought I had made a grave mistake. But, just as I began to form an apology, a smile dawned on his face and any worry I had dissipated as I returned it. 

Slowly, he wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me lightly. Cautious. Making sure this was okay. In response I pulled him into a tight hug and deepened the kiss. Everything about him being there, in my arms, felt so incredibly right. My entire body buzzed with emotions I had never felt before. Any love I had for him that I kept hidden away came spilling out of me and I hoped I would never have to let go. 

But, eventually, we did. We gazed at each other, attempting to regain our senses, for a few moments before he blurted, pushing me away, "Wait. You like April. Why the hell are you kissing me?" I smiled at the situation I was about to put myself in. I took his hand and looked him dead in the eye "Ilya, I've loved you for as long as I could remember. I just never knew how to show it. I thought it would be better to love you in secret than be a potential ex you'd hate. It ruined me at the thought of you being nothing more than an old best friend. Someone I would never get to speak to again. A memory. I was so overcome by the fear of losing you that I never thought to take the leap. But I'm ready now." 

For a moment he stared blankly into my eyes and I couldn't make out a single emotion behind them. At least, until the most beautiful smile I had ever seen broke out onto his face. He nodded slightly and I kissed him again, this time with less desperation and fervor. Now with the tenderness and affection I could only ever have for him.

After another moment, he pulled away from me and began to sprint down the street. Laughing and stretching out his arms to welcome the pouring rain. I watched him with a grin and in the middle of that flood, I felt my worth. I knew that I had no reason to hide anymore. No reason to run from myself. In that moment, I knew who I was and who I wanted to be.

For a moment I just watched him. At least, until he turned to me with that smile. That smile I knew I wanted to see every day for the rest of my life. We stood still for a moment, just looking. It was raining so hard that the two of us were the only thing that we could see for miles. But that was all we needed. For the hours afterwards, we jumped in the puddles and danced and laughed and kissed. Finally not caring about the what ifs. The fears. We now knew that could get through anything that came our way. Together.