"Your the girl i've been waiting for"| Nelson nuemann

Summer 2023 day 1

                                         Real life
                                  Trigger warning ⚠️ mention of self harm.

Lana pov:
this is what shes wearing:

it is currently May 1st first day of summer. I woke up at 8 am like always, i went to her restroom washed my face and brushed her teeth and went down stairs. "Hey laylay good morning" cam said, "hey cam cam good morning. Hi marie" i said. I went to the cabinet and got a glass cup and proceeded to the fridge. I took out the milk and poured it into her cup and out the jug away. While i was doing that she heard cam and marie whispering. I didn't really think about it.

Cams pov:
"Marie we have to tell her", he said whispering as Lana was getting her milk. "okay we will just give it a sec", marie said.

Lana's pov:
I then drank the milk and a chug. I would always do it every morning and Cam would get annoyed that I slurped it. "You know kid you gotta stop doing that", cam said as he was laughing which made me and marie laugh. I noticed that cam and marie looked at each other in a serious way nodding to each other signaling something. "Lana we have to talk", marie said. "did i do anything?", i questioned. " no you didn't", they both said
I took a seat on the counter next to the toaster while cam and marie where sitting in chairs leaning in the island in the kitchen. "As you know it's summer which means it's time for all the aau tournaments with rwe which you should really meet btw and i don't want you to be just at home in your room all summer lana. I'm saying this because i care for you and your mental health. I want you to get out of your comfort zone and join me in coaching or just be at practices and games in and out of state. last summer was rough and i want you to have friends other than ximena and zoe.", cam said. "where not saying this to put you in discomfort or anything but we want you to be socialized with people and to have fun. We promise to be there with you every single step of the way."marie said. We all sat in silence for a good 2 minutes, cam and marie letting me process. In my mind all i could think of was, " i don't want to, i'm fine with my friends." but then i had a thought that was telling me to listen to them feel free and be outgoing. I broke the silence, " You guys are right i'm sorry for distancing myself from the world and people after you know the boy i feel like i couldn't trust anyone but you guys and my besties and i'm honestly tired of the anxiety taking over and telling me to not be outgoing and like humiliating my self or something .". Cam and marie were shocked and happy that she is willing to try. "Hey i'm proud of you mama, okay and it's okay to feel scared about this but we promise to be there for you. And i'm glad your willing to try and said yes because today at 1:00 we have practice just the rwe team no crowds and you can finally meet them" cam said. "Okay i'll go and meet the team but i want canes" i said. "alr we can get canes but i'm gonna invite the team" cam said. " Alr deal" lana said. It's now 9:00am cam is making breakfast and Marie is telling me about the players. "Okay so first you have Lavar he's old as shit", " wait what how old?" I said laughing. "Well it's a team joke he's not really old he just looks 30 so the team makes fun of him he's really 23tho" Marie said, "ohhhh", i said.
"Then there is Romelo he's 16 he plays for us and also OTE rwe. So right now he's playing with us and taking a brake from OTE, i have a good feeling your gonna be close with him not trying to push things" Marie said. Before she could continue more Cam interrupted by yelling that breakfast was ready. "I'll tell you the rest later" she said . Once we  where done eating i only ate a little because I am trying not to eat but cam will get mad is i dont and I also want to practice with the guys. It is currently 11 am and I am starting to get ready. I
Washed her face brushed her teeth then went to her vanity. I put on water proof mascara and only lip gloss because i was gonna play and my skin is clear. I checked the time and it's 11:30. "Shit I don't know what to wear" I said. I took out some clothes and looked at it and said no then threw it causing a mess. I found a pair of black active wear shorts and a black crop top. "Screw it" i said putting it on. The crop top only showed up to my belly button. My scars on my are were still there but faded but you could still see them. I got used to them and started wearing short sleeves and cam and Marie where happy that i was out of wearing long sleeves in the crazy hot Texas weather. I put on her converse and looked in the mirror, "this will do it guess" i said. Cam yelled out that I have 10 minutes then there leaving. I quickly got my little sport bag through in perfume,deodorant, lip gloss and hair brush and a bottle of water. "Let's go laylay" Marie yelled . "Alrightttt" i said dragging out the t. I got my phone and AirPods and went downstairs and we all hopped in the car.  I was nervous and cam could see it. He easily read me . "You okay laylay" cam said. " yeah just nervous about what they will think of me. Like how do I start a convo or even talk to them" i said. "Just be yourself Lana trust me I know them there nice boys" Marie said. I didn't say anything back so I  just looked out the window blasted her music but i saw from the corner of her eye cam and Marie looking at each other worried. I love my music my favorite artists  are  Tyler the creator, Daniel ceaser, rod wave and mostly sza. We pulled in at the gym and she paused her music. " alright lana we are here grab your things let's go." mare said. Suddenly i just got this wave of anxiety. "What did I get myself into"she said to herself.

Lana speaks 🗣️:
Hey chat this was chapter 1 this is my first time writing so please give me feedback and how you like it so far. I'm to lazy to do grammar and spell checks so sorry 😭🙏🙏🙏