𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐛𝐞𝐭

03 | 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐲

BELLA

I hated myself for still wanting Brayden. Why couldn't I just have a switch to my heart, where I can just un-power it and get rid of all my feelings for him. Believe me if I could, then I would, because I know that Brayden is going to ruin me.

But maybe I wanted to be ruined.

But I guess what they say about first love is true, 'you can never forget your first love' and I know that saying is probably true because I've watched Brayden break and shatter my heart countless of times, over and over again.

I always mend to fix my shattered heart, but what if one day I can't anymore. I needed to forget him and get away from him before everything starts going downhill, however I can't just forget and erase him from my memories.

If I'm being honestly, out of all four members of SR4 the biggest player will probably be Brayden. He's actually such a sex addict. I've tried over and over again to forget him and I keep telling myself that he probably has more bodies that I would like, and that I would be hurt by him if I keep approaching him.

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It was already 9 pm and we were all on FaceTime getting ready for the party, since it doesn't start until late 10 pm to early 11 pm. Honestly I don't even know why students would host parties that late at night if there's literally school tomorrow.

But I would be lying if I said that I never thought about attending one before because I have, more times than I would like. All because I've got word that Brayden was going to be there, however I stopped myself.

"Bels." Hailey called, making me snap out of my thoughts.

"What's up." I answered half heartedly, still somewhat in my messed up thoughts.

"Bels, your lipgloss is getting all over your face." Hailey said which made me fully snap out of my thoughts.

"Oh shit. Hold on ladies, let me go get a wipe to wipe this off." I said as I stood up and walked to the bathroom.

Ever since I was little I've lived in somewhat of a luxury life, I mean my family wasn't poor, and we were well off. I've never really gotten my way, it was like I always had something to prove, and no matter how hard I try, it's never enough.

"Okay I'm back, anyways ladies what are we planning on wearing tonight?" I asked as I reached my vanity, where my phone was propping up against the mirror.

"Why don't we just wear some jeans and then a crop top?" Lucy suggested, which wasn't a bad idea, since we didn't want to dress too fancy, especially since this wasn't homecoming or prom. "Or we can just wear something comfy for us to dance and party all night long."

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Once all four of us reached the location, we started to walk in together and honestly I almost felt like the odd one out since I was the only one in a skirt but whatever.

Adeline was wearing these light blue washed high waisted baggy denim-jeans with a white corset top to match, she even curled her hair slightly to go alone with her outfit.

Lucy was wearing black on black. She had some black skinny jeans on and she paired it with a one sleeve black top and her hair was up in a claw clip up-do.