Ruan Lanzhu's POV
I could sense his fears. But what is he even afraid of? We sat in complete silence for about 5 minutes before he spoke.
"From-from what moment did you know you had feelings for me?"
He looks cute while blushing and right now his cheeks are red a cherry red. And it looks beautiful.
I moved my face towards him and he moved back from me. And I couldn't stop my chuckle.
"I am not going to kiss you. But can I touch you?"
He hesitated but still nodded a little for me. And he seriously is a scaredy kitten.
I took his face in my hands and said
"I don't know when I started liking you. And I am not a person who hide his feelings from the one he loves. Lingling you may have your fears but I can help yoi come over them. You can tell me anything and I will help you with it. Please let me be your safe place. "
And he doesn't look convinced. What made you so fearful Lingling?
And this is not the only problem. He doesn't even remember the past. Was his memory lost? He had an accident? I don't know anything about him. It's like I am learning everything new about him.
"Lanzhu" He called softly.
"I don't deserve your efforts. I-I am not worthy of your love. You-you should stop liking me. Lanzhu I am not what I am here. Here I don't have any worries. This is the most I could enjoy in my life. Lanzhu I don't even remember who I am. How can you know me. I just know I have to help my mother. Because she saved me but I don't even remember from what I was saved. My father throw a paper on me with the amount that I could never be able to pay. And I am trying trying desperately to get out of there. Because it's horrible but Lanzhu I know deserve this. Your Love it's too costly for me. "
There are little tears on his eyes threatening to fall so I wiped them with my thumb and gently cradle his face.
"Love. You are worthy of my love. No only you are worthy of my love. And you don't have to worry about anything. I will be there for you like I once promised. You don't remember anything right? We will remember it together. Every step that you take i will be there right by your side-"
"Don't make promises that you couldn't keep. Lanzhu" He said softly.
"I am not making any promises. I am telling you facts. I will guide you. I will help you. Mr. Wang's problem, we will solve it together. You can tell me why you are with him."
"Lanzhu I am-I am still not-"
I know he was again going to ramble so I placed my fingers on his lips.
"If you aren't ready. It's ok. I will wait for you."
And I could see little happiness in his eyes. But it was just for a moment. Like something is stopping him from being happy. And I know I will help him overcome his every fear. While overcoming mine.
"I like the world inside the door." Jiushi said softly.
"Why?" I asked him amused. No one, one had ever said something like this.
"I don't know. I just feel safe there. The people inside are suffering from something even bigger than me and it turns them into an evil person who everyone hates. But-but they just need a little push, a little encouragement, a little love and they will be on the right path. No one is evil in this world Lanzhu. They are made by some circumstances. When a person is faced with hate he have two options. One become like them. Two be kind. Both are in your own hands. And both are not bad. It's just a coping system for everyone. "
And I couldn't help myself but look at him. This is the thing that made me fall in love with him. He will find good in everyone and everything. And I asked him out of the blue.
